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Friday, October 24, 2014

So, I'm sitting with myself in the car this morning asking myself: "How do I get this going? What has worked before? What can still work with where I am now?"

I have to go back. WAY back. Before Spark even.

I've been dieting my whole life. I hate dieting. It sets off a cycle of self-hate in me that just hurts my heart and my bones. I punish myself for not losing weight fast enough, for not being strong enough, for not having a body like my friends and family. It's isolating and self-depricating, and not in a good way. The one big thing that has kept me away for so long has been the need to not be in that headspace. And, yet, here I am. Because the alternative still leads me down a rabbit hole of self-hate.

Darned if you do; darned if you don't...right?!

So what can I do RIGHT NOW to succeed and build some confidence? What is the ONE thing I KNOW I can succeed at if all else fails? Because I need that one thing to get me going.


Drinking water.

Damn, it's so simple and yet I've been allowing myself pop and tea way too often these days. Yesterday I sat on the couch (I was working from home), pouring through research documents and feeling SO thirsty, but I didn't go get any water because it "wasn't what I wanted..." Yea, that's just silly. I recognize that.

So, that's the ONLY goal I'm going to track right now. I might track my food, if I remember. I might track a workout if I manage to find one that doesn't hurt. But, more than anything, I WILL be drinking 8 glasses of water a day...10 if I can manage it.

If you're reading this...do it with me. Go drink 8 ounces of water RIGHT NOW and don't comment/reply to this post until you've done it. We are going to have to pee SO MUCH!! *lol*
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  • no profile photo CD4764832
    I just drank 8 oz. of water!

    Ester, just keep trying, you'll get there in your own time. But remember, just showing up to life is good enough, you are do that every day! You are good enough right now!!
    2386 days ago
    Going - thanks! You can do it!!
    2389 days ago
    Yeah girl! Let's get our butts hydrated.

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    2389 days ago
    emoticon chugged!
    Thanks for the reminder.
    2389 days ago
    Drinking water is a great start. :) You don't even have to have water on its own - Walmart sells the little water additives that have only sucralose or stevia or xylitol (none of which will cause a massive insulin release) in a vast array of flavours! or you could have the herbal teas, if you prefer a hot drink now that the weather is cooling down. This is the season for lots of spiced herbal teas being sold, too, so if you like the pumpkin spice or apple cinnamon start looking for them in stores now. :)

    Pop is bad for you on so many levels, not just the sugar content. If it destroys metal, imagine what it's doing to your insides!

    One of my 3 Fat Chicks forum members has the following motivational quote in her posts:-

    Losing weight is hard. Maintenance is hard. Being fat is hard. Pick your hard. (-Ishbel)

    and I think it's so true. In terms of "hard"ness, I think it's probably easier to reconcile brain with body if both sides can make some concession - brain has to focus and body has to work. :)

    You can do this, girl. You've done it before, it just takes BEING READY to make those changes. Be strong. We're with you 100%. :)

    2389 days ago
  • ERIN1128
    I promise, I'll drink my water as soon as I finish my coffee, LOL! Water is not a problem for me, I drink a ton. But I could give you a long list of problem stuff. We'll get there!
    2389 days ago
    I very literally just drank 8 oz of water before reading this blog. Does that count? emoticon

    Love the challenge! We can do it! So simple and yet so very effective too.
    2389 days ago
    I've noticed that if I put the water near me on my desk or car while driving I'll drink more of it! I fill up my tumbler at work and I sip it all day and I'll get about 2 or maybe 3 of them in and each one holds a lil more than 2 cups of water. Start small and work your way, that's what I'm doing also!
    2389 days ago
  • DTHOR6
    Please don't compare yourself to your friends. You are not them. You are you and your are unique!! One thing I have to tell myself over and over is I didn't put this weight on overnight, It's not going to come off overnight either, Shoot if it did we would all eat whatever we wanted whenever we wanted to right?

    I don't have a problem getting my water in anymore, in fact I drink almost a gallon a day but it wasn't that way when I started this lifestyle change I had to force myself to drink the water because like you it isn't what I wanted. And honestly if I didn't have crystal light or some other water filler I still wouldn't get it in because I am all about flavor if that makes any sense.

    Anyway my point was this.. don't degrade yourself sweetie. You are you and you are beautiful. And YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

    2389 days ago
    I always get my water in, but for you it will be an accomplishment. Go for it!
    2389 days ago
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