Getting it together
Saturday, October 18, 2014
So far so good...but it's only been a week. I am trying to take baby steps because I know that even though it won't provide quick results it will be better for me in the long run. Struggling with getting up in the morning to run. I used to love to run now I have to force myself every single step. I'm hoping that once some of the weight comes off it will be less painful and not so difficult to get motivated to do it. So far in the past almost week and a half I have forced myself to run three times. In my younger days I would have been disgusted at my self for a 14 minute mile but I'm just thankful I can make it without having a heart attack at this point. I have done some low impact aerobics because I don't think my body could handle anything else at this point, but like I said baby steps. I am proud of myself and what I am accomplishing, I just pray for the motivation to stick with it. Seems like as soon as I decided to start this everything started going wrong, and it makes it even harder to eat right because I am the biggest stress eater. It makes me that much prouder that I have been able to go through issues at work and at home without binging. Have I gone over my calories? Yes I do that more days than I don't, but not too far over, and I'm not eating 6,000 calories a day any more and that counts for something in my book. If I eat 2,200 calories instead of 1,500 some days I'll try to exercise a little longer, and even if I don't I refuse to feel bad. If I start to feel bad then I'll decide I can't do it and just dive off the deep end. No I am not going to loose 20 pounds in a month this way, but maybe if I loose it in three months it will be easier to keep off later. Nothing but good things ahead, a positive attitude can move mountains, I just have to remember that.