Convicted - Guilty as Charged
Monday, September 15, 2014
So, I'd been hearing about this documentary "Fed Up" for several months now on Facebook. It was finally released on video this month, so hubby and I watched it last night.
It is eye-opening, even for us. We have already watched every food documentary known to man. We read books & magazines about food. We are well educated. And it was still a bit jarring, and more than a bit heartbreaking. We BOTH cried more than once during the 90 minute running time.
It is simply tragic what we are doing to our bodies when we consume the "food-like substances" that the processed food industry is feeding to us. And even though our meals are usually 100% plant-based whole foods cooked at home, I am still guilty. I absolutely love my 'treats' and I have regained weight because of it. Worse than what I do to myself, though, it what I'm doing to my children. It's not fair to them, and it's not fair to my husband, who doesn't want us eating like that.
I stayed up about an hour after he went to bed last night, just thinking & thinking & thinking. I couldn't get it all out of my head. Finally, I went through & purged the house of what few 'treats' we did have, and I wrote about an 8 page confession to God about my rebellion. I've been putting myself, and my food addiction, up on His throne. Bad things happen when we don't let God be the sovereign ruler of our lives like He's supposed to be. Guilt, shame, failure, hopelessness, destruction, death. I can't keep doing this. I have to trust and obey. I have to ditch the pride and stop thinking I know better. I have to stop lying to myself.
Please keep me lifted in prayer as I tackle this demon once again. THANK YOU.