Whoa...today was a bust. I felt generally dissatisfied with the whole day. In other words, "Blah".
It wasn't one thing that I could put my finger on...it was just a general feeling. I know that these days will come and go, and I know that I can't necessarily control when or why they happen, but I do know that I can CONTROL HOW I RESPOND TO THEM.
It's an ongoing thing, this life we lead. I have learned that while trying to lose weight, I'm also working on other aspects of my being, such as control issues. My daughter, who is 22, has 2 part-time jobs, one that starts early in the morning and one in the evening. The other morning, I was getting up and leisurely getting ready for the day in my bedroom. She suddenly burst in and yelled, "It's 8:45!", and then began to freak out because she was over an hour late, having slept through her alarm. I calmly told her to call her boss, explain what happened, throw some clothes on, and leave. She did try to sneak in that I should have noticed she wasn't at work and to wake her, or something to that effect, but that bounced right off me...uh uh...not going to work, sweetie.
I've always known that weight loss is about control, but it does take a bit to realize that you ARE in control, especially when food is either "a beacon" or "calls out" to you. Taking back that control is an important step in the weight loss process, because as long as you let food take the wheel, you'll be going down a dead-end street. A really really long one.
So, I've learned that WHAT you can control is as important as being IN control. Working on the two together can be like mixing oil and water...but with the right attitude, I can make some changes and end up with oil and vinegar (and a mighty tasty salad dressing in the process).