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Friday, September 05, 2014


Starting Again....

It seems like I have typed that so many times that I should be ashamed. But the truth is giving up is what I should be ashamed of.

After losing a good amount of weight and running 5k, 10k and a HM...
After knowing all the hard work I put into the accomplishments...

I still gave up and gained most of my weight back.

It started with my knees bothering me when I ran. It got to the point that I could not do a simple mile without having to give up. And that made me GIVE UP. I LOVED running so much that I felt that if I could not do it that what was the point in working so hard.

I know, I know, I know.... I told myself over and over that I should not let my success be dependent on one thing, but I loss that battle. I tried to get into other things like biking or just walking but nothing could motivate me.

So here I start again. Well actually I started 8/4. My daughter has been asking me for 2 months to help her with a meal plan and slimming down. And trust me I know the drill. I have done it a few times. But my mine just was not there. It's like an addiction. If you are not ready to kick the habit it not going to happen for you. So I finally gave in and decided to start. Why:....I have been sewing for myself all summer and decided I was tried of having to cut the pieces so big. I want to be able to make the smaller dresses and buy less fabric. It's not the best reason, but it got me going.

Of course when I decided to do this SP was the first place I thought of. I did look into MyFitnessPal but it just does not have the same feel to me.

I believe being here, blogging, tracking, following challenges, talking to others and making new friends will make a difference.

And who knows I may be able to build my strength back up to jog again. I have been reading up on what needs to be done to keep my knees healthy and strong and I plan to focus on that. And I truly truly truly hope I will be able to run again. Even if it's just 5ks I will take it. Running was just so good for my mind, body and soul.

Wish me luck.

I've been gone a long time, but I hope to be able to find some of my old friends and look forward to making new ones.

Right now my goal is....SMALL STEPS... to get the REAL ME BACK
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    I swear I could copy and paste this blog into my page. (except I only got to the 5k stage :) I agree with everything you said. The "why bother with anything if I'm not exercising" and the fact that if your mind isn't ready to get back to a health lifestyle there is no amount of wishing it so that will make it happen. I too have been gone awhile, gained most of my weight back, and decided (FINALLY!) I am ready to get my act together again. We have done it before, we can do it again, right? We know the drill. :) Good luck to you!
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    2246 days ago
    It can be really hard to have to give up something you love (ie: your running). My reactions were similar to yours. I have been working on reacting / responding differently to setbacks and losses as they occur. It isn't easy, but I think I'm getting better at it. Slowly.


    I think your reason for coming back here is great! It is as good as any. Maybe even more honest than most. Sometimes really simple reasons can make all the difference.

    I wish the best for you!
    2246 days ago
    Yes, welcome back! We're all in this together.
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    2246 days ago
  • GRACED777
    I wasn't here when you were last on here, but I still want to say, Welcome Back. It takes courage to come back when you've had a hard time for whatever reason.

    I started here in 2013, but I have been getting more firmly established over time. Right now I'm participating more than I ever have, because the accountability is helpful as I seek to do what I need to now to hopefully gain less winter weight this year. Just finished losing last year's winter weight, and hope not to have to go through that again this year.

    So, it's good to see you!

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    2246 days ago
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