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its early in the a.m. im up before the birds. dawn is near. I have a new perspective. considering bariatric surgery. this could mean a whole new life for me. one of movement. how exciting. September 5th is my orientation. I've been researching the before and afters, the pros and cons. my outlook on the possibilities for a better life are endless. I want so much to become the person I've always been, inward and outwardly. the idea of actually being able to fit into things comes to mind. quite liberating.

Im so use to taking care of everyone elses needs. I was in nursing for around fifteen years and I gave so much to my family to do so was basically automatic. yet, to make this decision for myself took over six months to process. I want to do this for me. I understand the system and the process afterwards and I am ready to be successful. this is the step I've been needing to complete my lifestyle change. if I could do it on my own it would have been a task completed. some of us need the extra help sometimes.

I figure life is about choices and decisions and its time I made one for my own wellbeing and quality of life. the time is now! I think I'm finally ready.