Monday, July 28, 2014
Since moving into our new place and the kids getting their place my DD and I have started to spend Sundays together. It is our day. We go to lunch, hang at the house with the dog, watch movies, talk, go bumming around to various shops, visit the human society and have dinner at my place. It is generally my cheat/splurge day and I throw caution to the wind and just enjoy.
I discovered yesterday while talking that I'm holding onto some anger, self hatered for all that happened last fall with us all having to split locations. Never since I had my son have I lived any where with out my kids. This has been hard on me despite their of age statuses. I believe it has feed much of my weight gain, and depression just as the job change feed it some too.
On top of that the challanges, and boredom in the old job. The write ups and such plus losing our truck did not help matters any. I know what to do, I know how to do it I just cannot find the inner motivation to do it.
I have no one local to exercise with when I cannot get to the gym which is our right now because of finances
I do not like exercising at home as that is my relaxation space
I am tried of all this time alone
Yes I can go ride or walk around the lake but I'm still alone. Sure there are lots of people walking, running, etc around the lake but I just can't wrap my head around it. Maybe I'm being stubborn as I'm known to do/be.
So my idea use every 1 week free trial for every gym near me and do what I used to do when I went to the gym at my old job. At least that way I am with other people even though we may not be interacting.
I have started to take the dog for 2 longer walks each day to increase my activity, now to keep rebuilding it.
ugh, sorry for the ramble.
Hope all is well with everyone.
Please help give me a kick out of this depressive funk!