Saturday, July 19, 2014
After the bombshell in November things got particularly crazy. No one is surprised by this fact.
I have been very focused on my husband and the constantly changing needs required by his condition. This is good and I would not trade the time with him (even on the bad days when he is ornery and it seems I can't do anything right).
I was talking with my counselor yesterday and I realized that I have been having trouble keeping myself on my list of priorities. I have spent the last month or so really stressing about my diet and nutritional goals. I have gained some weight (enough that I'm uncomfortable) and I have noticed that emotional eating is creeping into my life. Most distressing is my self-talk and body image.
I was telling her about this and she challenged me to come up with (and implement) some strategies to put my issues on the list. I have to put myself immediately after my husband needs!
I gave it some serious thought and am making the effort to come back to logging in, tracking, teams, and my weekly blog. In order to help me with consistency I have downloaded the tracking app. I have to admit I am already loving the bar-code scanner feature! I also down loaded the motivational thoughts app. These are tools I haven't used before and I am looking forward to getting to know them.
I know now that this will continue to be a challenge for me as I continue to be the primary caregiver for my husband. I also know that I just can't quit or give up.