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Fat Lady Sings outta tune

Monday, July 14, 2014

If you had told me a couple of years ago I would have gained all kinds of weight back, I would have laughed and said, Heck no! Friends, I came back because I have lost sight of what I was doing, my goals and everything else you can imagine. I NEED HELP!

What happened, is simple, I became depressed and shut down. I didn't do one very important thing...stay in therapy!!! This time, I am changing that.

I am doing a baby step, but I need support of my friends, if you still believe in me.

This is one of the hardest days of my life...coming back and saying OMG...I am so fat!

But I am here!!!

Good to be home,

Love Kristin
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  • KIMCOLLINGS
    I'm so glad you're back. I've missed you and your sweet blogs. Know that we are here for you anytime and always. Sparkers are like that :)
    2371 days ago
  • FANGFACEKITTY
    emoticon never be ashamed to ask for help. No one is perfect, no one can do it all alone.
    2459 days ago
  • CRESHA20
    emoticon I am so excited that you are back. At least you know you're in the right place to have support while making your changes.

    Most of us have had those moments of regaining. I know there was a time I got down to 285, which is the lowest I have ever been in my adult life. That was at a time where I had made significant changes. Well, those numbers didn't last long, and I reached my highest weight of 345 at the time. I did lose down to nearly 300. When I got pregnant last year I was 310, and I made it up to 367, and I thought for sure I wouldn't lose any of the weight after having the baby. It's been 2 and a half months and I am down 44 pounds, still not where I was prepregnancy, but I am having a difficult time with working out. I haven't gotten into a routine yet. I am also working on my eating, but I have really been struggling. I said all that to say, I know I can do it, and you can too.
    2463 days ago
  • EVER-HOPEFUL
    hi kristin,susie said it best when she wrote,welcome home as that is what spark is it is like family.sorry i took so long getting round to this blog but still playing catch up from the hospital and the computer conection here at rehab is pretty much hit and miss because of the mountains,lol.first of all never say omg i am fat,would you say that to your friend?no,then why say it to yourself.ok.you have stumbelled a bit,now pick yourself up,brush your self off,and learn from your mistakes and continue down on this road of life.know i am here for you love just let us know how i can help.i am also going to have to reset when i get out of rehab.as what with the pain and the missing my husband and kids especially when my son zakariya was is hospital and i wasn´t there for him(he cameout yesturday)i have been what i call stress eating.just remember you have the power within you.you can do this,you have done it befoe so you know it can be down.look back at your old blogs.see what helped and didn´thelp last time use that knowledge.experiment if nessacary but most of all don´t give up emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon have faith in yourself like i have faith in you and your abilities
    2464 days ago
  • NEWMOM20121
    Welcome back. emoticon
    2466 days ago
  • CATS_MEOW_0911
    Glad to see you back, Kristin! emoticon
    2468 days ago
  • LOTUSFLOWER
    Welcome back, you can do it!
    2468 days ago
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    Welcome home Kristin ... Great to see you back ..
    Never ever beat yourself up my friend, it is just wasted energy ..
    Today is a new day ..a new beginning .. Lets do this together .. Love Susie. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2468 days ago
  • MISSROCKABILLY
    emoticon Kristin! It is not easy to come on here and admit that you have regained weight, I am proud of you for taking that step! Also glad to hear that you are getting treatment for your depression.

    Just know that we are always here for you! You can do this!
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    Laura
    2469 days ago
  • HEALTHYMAINEMOM
    Kristin, I rarely log in to Sparkpeople. I am at my heaviest weight ever. I knew to login because I had set up email notifications to let me know if you posted anything. You are the only person I've ever done that for. It's because I found myself loving your posts and rooting for you! You have amazing spirit! I'm happy for you that you are taking baby steps and getting therapy. Hugs ~Julie
    2469 days ago
  • LIZZABETH1986
    Good luck, Kristin! I recently returned after a pretty long hiatus, too. Don't worry. What's done is done... now it's time to make some changes. Stick with it -- you can do it! Glad to see you back.
    2469 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/15/2014 9:10:41 AM
  • MYRTROSE
    You can do it. Just start with the basics. I'm just starting back after having a baby...and gaining over 30 pounds back after having her! I'm up 52 pounds from my prepregnancy weight and 9 pounds shy of my all time high of 350. Sucks, and I feel totally overwhelmed, but I'm sick of feeling like garbage.
    2469 days ago
  • no profile photo CD9065446
    So nice to see you again! I also am back after a long hiatus, so cheers to us emoticon I know you can do it, you've already proved that, and I'm rooting for you now emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2469 days ago
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    2469 days ago
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