The more things change...
Saturday, July 12, 2014
Checking in with a brief omnibus update.
I am no longer working hard at being Paleo, but the couple months I spent at it do seem to have changed my tastes in food. I don't want extremely sweet things, anymore. For example, while I did eat a (single) Eggo waffle at breakfast this morning, I ate it without any syrup or other sweetener. At my parents' house last week my mother made chocolate chip cookies, and I repeatedly decided to eat something else when I had the munchies. When circumstances force me to take my preschooler to the grocery store, I buy her a donut, but I'm not tempted to get one for myself.
Sweet stuff just makes me feel so bad that usually I don't want it. And that's a major shift in perspective.
I am also addicted to my hour-long walks, either on a nearby trail or at the gym, depending on the weather. I do them five days a week, skipping on the days my daughter goes to preschool (cuz those are working days for this indie author). I absolutely depend on them to sleep well, feel good during the day, and stay sane. They're when I have my mind to myself, on the days my daughter is home, and they're when I do my best thinking about my current projects. The day before we left for my parents' house I couldn't take that hour for myself, and oh boy, was I grumpy about it.
HAVING SAID ALL OF THAT, I currently weigh 195 pounds. That's exactly what I weighed when I signed up for the gym last December. I was briefly down to 191 pounds, at the height of my Paleo phase. As soon as I started eating some grains again I bounced back up. So that wasn't real weight loss, just an illusion.
So, you know. Whaddaya gonna do. Losing weight is an excruciating process for me, and I don't know if I'll ever succeed in any significant amount of loss. I feel that I have healthy habits, though, so frankly... weight loss can go hang. I have multiple metabolic conditions. I have other priorities for my life and time. I can pose for a picture and not look completely horrible. My husband likes me. End of story.