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20 Wow,it IS hard...

Tuesday, July 01, 2014

Giving up meat is much harder than I ever thought, I have had some really bad moments in the past weeks and it does not get easier because I really doubt why I am doing it... There is no real health reason from the nutrition, I should preferably give up sweets, icecream and fast food if that was the real reason.

And as I still eat fish and chicken I did not think it would be that hard, but it is, I have really been fighting some tough battles wit myself in the food store... I only cling to the fact that if I give in to that voice "just this time, I´ll continue tomorrow" will be the opening to a relapse that I will not be able to stop ... I also suspect that I "hide" behind this work to stay with the other things I still eat - my eating these past 20 days has bee a little on-off and definitely not only healthy stuff on healthy times....

I have to lean on my former experience with alcohol, it was the same the first weeks and then it got a lot easier - and after six-eight months it was just natural life. I do realise that this will be harder a) because food IS my main drug and much more established in me as something I 2have" to have and b) because the world around me will be more difficult to deal with because I will have more situations where I will be questioned for my choices... oh well, one day at the time.

But this "the world" thing is a construction - I have had peanuts during the past week and got sort of sick when I had a lot - pain in my stomach, a lot of belching and uneasy feeling - I obviously is developing some sort of allergy... and it will of course not be a problem to refuse peanuts if I think I am allergic so it is as easy to avoid meat, claiming I get sick if I eat. And it also the truth, I do relapse into obsession if I eat meat.

Oh well, I am off to drive the girls to music camp today, it´s great because I don´t have to cook for a week, but I will also miss daughter ...
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  • OOLALA53
    I know you've had more trouble with bingeing on meat than I ever did. But I found that the years I tried to be vegetarian were bad binge years. However, in the years I was turning around my sweets binge habit, I ate mostly chicken, turkey, some fish, eggs, and cottage cheese as my animal protein, so even though I felt eating them was central, red meat didn't play much of a role. I went with it because I decided that bingeing on sweets was worse than eating meat in my total health profile. (I think of all animal flesh as meat. I did and do eat it, though. I keep wishing I could be comfortable with no animal flesh, but I seem to have more trouble with food thoughts when I stray too far. But it might be my imagination? I haven't given up on it.)

    You still have lots of foods to choose from, so you definitely won't starve!
    1957 days ago
  • KITT52
    good luck
    1959 days ago
    You are working your plan! I am encouraged by you! Keep at it! If some one questions, smile, wink, and slyly say "I'm so sexy I don't have to eat meat". Then bat your eyes like crazy and then giggle. If they are still bothering you, spin around three times, click your heels together loudly if possible and chant "there's no place like home, there's no place like home". If they are still standing next to you my last resort, drastic but maybe necessary, point at them and say "I curse you with boils". They should scurry away then. LOL. Sometimes just imagining you did it will make one laugh and ease your feelings.

    Hugs dear.
    1961 days ago
    it IS hard -- but I think you're motivated by a challenge, right?
    1962 days ago
    I don't eat that much meat anymore. When I do have it, it is more of a treat.
    Knowing our trigger points is key to success. Sounds like you know yours and have successfully avoided them. Way to go!! emoticon
    1962 days ago
    I won't ever go back to eating meat. Not that it's anyone's business, but I flat out love the way I FEEL since I've made this change in my life and no one can argue with that; and they don't. That said, I know you can be a vegetarian and still make unhealthy choices; I can't endorse that. There are too many healthy alternatives. I eat very few processed foods. That's why I keep that 13 year old picture on my page; a reminder of what life was like when I started. Health is my motivator. Mobility, independence and being able to keep up with the youngsters and go out and have a good time! It's been 13 years now eating vegetarian and life is good. Be well! Hugs.
    1962 days ago
    Reading your blogs ,interesting and also very helpful to me in my struggles, so I would like to thank you for your posts. emoticon
    I eat fish eggs chicken mostly and sometimes goat and lamb. Lots of veggies and fruit.
    I seldom eat beef , maybe once every 2 months or so I do not miss it much
    still I prepare it for my husband, meat-lover that he is.
    I see no reason for you to have to explain your food choices to people if you do not want to.
    You could have a peanut allergy. Need a snack ? try some Edamame, or chick peas
    cook them and then roast them in the oven with spices, crispy and yummy.
    1962 days ago
    I wish I knew what to say. I'm sorry you're having such a struggle.
    As vegetarians my husband and I get questioned, and mocked, a lot. We don't care. I'm re-reading the book Eat to Live and it sums up quite nicely how vegetarians live longer and are much less at risk for all kinds of diseases like cancer, heart disease and Alzheimers. So I figure we'll be the last ones laughing.
    The wellbeing of animals is a strong reason for us not to eat meat. Is this something that might help motivate you?
    1962 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/1/2014 7:30:59 AM
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