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Monday, June 09, 2014

I started this journey early in the year. I didn't start on New Years Day. I dragged my feet a bit. I started too many journeys on New Years Day that ended somewhere other than my destination! This time was going to be different...and reality ... I wanted to eat all the leftovers from the holidays before I started this journey. That's the truth! I ate every single holiday cookie that was in my house!

Here is my photo that I took one month in. I think it was the beginning of February when I recorded my measurements and took a photo which I vowed would never see the light of day - but here I am posting it!

I worked hard for about three months then in April I decided to take a break at Easter time. Really, it was a slip into no exercise and poor eating for about a month with a couple days here and there that I was on track - however, I stayed in touch with Spark People. I just didn't do the work. During April I gained 7 lbs!

In May, I refocused and reminded myself of my goals. I started moving again and eating better. I started a virtual walk... from Grand Rapids, MI to Phoenix, AZ. Yep, 1,870 miles!

Well, here I am yesterday before I hopped on the treadmill.

I think I see a slight difference! Not a lot - but a difference!!! Yippee!!!

Sometimes I have to remind myself, it is a long journey. I need to pace myself. There will be slips, falls, injuries, lack of motivation - things that will get in the way of my goal.

If getting there was just a walk in a straight line, on flat ground it would be easy! But it is climbing hills, up and down, going around corners - sometimes my goal isn't even in my sight. I have to have faith and belief that it is out there and I will get there. I have to not buy into the fear that I will never get there.

Faith and fear - two invisible things that require me to believe in something I cannot see. Somehow it is so much easier for me to fall to fear than to hold strong to faith.

But then I found that first photo and decided to take the second. There it was, right in my face. I could see the difference. It wasn't having faith - I could see it!

Then there are all those little things - like no longer being limited to the clothes in the plus size department, like fitting in a favorite dress that was too tight, like having someone say "You look good", like not being out of breath when taking the stairs at work, like being able to tie my shoes a little easier - yep - it still is a little uncomfortable - but not like it was, like looking forward to going out for a walk instead of sitting in a chair, like enjoying shopping for workout clothes - that are NOT black - and enjoy wearing them instead of wanting to hide. The list goes on..... More reasons to have faith.

I am so glad that I stayed committed to my goals and this journey. I am so glad I have spark friends to encourage me, to challenge me, to just listen and to tell me to have faith. When you do the right things, good things will happen - sometimes it takes a while, but they WILL happen.

Sometimes I am quick to whine when things aren't going right. Sometimes I feel I can be negative and seek encouragement more than most. But today I just want to say ..... If you are struggling, don't quit. Just do one small thing to move you in the direction of your goal. Don't lose faith. Keep doing those right things as best as you can. If you fall down, get back up. If you are struggling to get back up, ask for help (it's ok to ask for help). If you can't see your goal, have faith that with one or two more steps it may be just around the corner. Don't let fear take over! Have faith in yourself and this process.

I AM going to get there this time..... hopefully about the time I arrive in Phoenix on my virtual walk!!! I hope you all arrive there with me!!!

Spark on!!!
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  • SARIC_33
    I think you look great! Quite a difference! Fabulous
    2567 days ago
    YAY!!!! You look terrific! Heck YES, this journey has made a difference. You're going to take that walk and you're going to get to Phoenix and you're going to be healthier and more energized and fit along the way! emoticon
    2567 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8126238
    Cheering you on!
    2568 days ago
    emoticon You look great and it is easy to see that there is a big difference! I struggle with having faith in myself. It is always helpful to hear from others that have faced the same struggle and they overcame it. Thank you for writing.

    2568 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12785407
    Well said..... You look great! There IS a difference between the pictures. Keep up the good work! I think we all "slip and fall" occasionally, but the trick is to get back up and keep going. It IS a journey, there is no quick, overnight fix (not one that lasts). Good luck with the journey....
    2568 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14566395
    i see it you look good. love the blog very inspiring emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2568 days ago
    Yep I can see a difference. You are doing it. I am proud of you for staying with it, saying no to unhealthy food and telling yourself, I am going to do my walk or get on the treadmill right now, and doing it. You are an inspiration to keep going, not to give in to being lazy or eating foods that I know are trigger food. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2568 days ago
    You look great! Nice to be able to shop in all the stores, not just plus-size.

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    2568 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13423552
    I see a definite difference! You are looking good! Keep it up girl!
    2568 days ago
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