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The Dirty, Dreaded "P" Word

Tuesday, June 03, 2014

I appreciate all of the encouragement and praise I've been getting from you guys. I really do. And I don't want to disappoint you, but it's time for some cold, hard truth.

In the likely event that you haven't been paying attention to my actual weight over the past bunch of blogs, here is my scary reality:

I have not lost a single pound since January.

In fact, I've been fighting since New Year's Day to achieve the same low weight from a terribly ill-advised night of partying on too little food and the ensuing epic hangover. I got to one pound over that and said "woohoo! Maintenance weight!" and promptly ate five pounds back on.

I am battling the same damn 5 or 7 pounds, endlessly. It's time to face the fact that I am on a weight loss PLATEAU. I KNOW I am not working out as hard as I should and have often been substituting normal human movement for fat-slaying exercise. And then there are the nights like last, when (after a full seven days binge-free) all hell breaks loose after my own ridiculous insistence that one 18-carb ice cream bar would really be fine. (It turned into three. And a huge portion of nuts, too).

I see fitness gains, to an extent, but no measurement changes, no clothes-fit changes, no difference in my problem areas.

Oddly, though, it is only in these past few weeks or months that people have suddenly said "hey, you look great, by the way," or "you've lost a lot of weight, haven't you?" -- So I guess I am appearing slimmer to others, somehow.

I wonder if I'm eating too much, with my trackers communicating. Then I wonder if I'm eating too little, since I generally regard the tracker as completely insane and try to come in well under its lofty numbers.

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So frustrating.

I'm super positive about becoming a fit person and actually enjoying exercise, and the fact that I can get into most size 6s and a "small" blouse (the un-stretchy kind!), but this inability to make any numbers change makes me feel like screaming BLARGH!!!

Since I'm only one week back into being really SERIOUS and measuring and not missing workout days and such, I shouldn't really complain. I need to give it time and wait it out and all of that. But thanks for letting me vent emoticon
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  • GREGGWEISBROD
    I just read you say how you fit into size six now and small blouses, and it completely blows me away at how far you've come. I'm really so super proud to know you some, and hope you find the dedication comes easy with your recent re-commitment to full out doing this thing. It's SO much fun peeking through your gallery and seeing where you came from and where you are now. It's just incredible! :)
    2463 days ago
  • BATCHICK
    I too have been struggling the entireity of 2014. "Year of the Plateau" is what I call it...
    But I'm happy my weight hasn't gone up. And that is a victory.
    Don't give up, make goals and focus and remember to love yourself for who you are and where you are right now. You may not be there yet but life is too short and precious to focus on something in the future. Cut yourself some slack and give yourself credit for what you've acheived so far!

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    2465 days ago
  • KMSTRANG79
    Same thing happened to me after my wedding! I had been working so hard for a year to take off those 5-10lbs that i'd been battling for YEARS, and when i hit one of the goals i had set for myself, i was thrilled! But no sooner did I get on that plane after the wedding to head to Disney World did it all just find it's way back ( I mean, it's Disney World, what can you do, it pretty much comes as an add-on to park admission). But it's so frustrating. Like all that hard work was for nothing. Yet at the same time knowing I chose to eat a little more "freely" makes me feel better. I did it to enjoy it. So why regret it!! emoticon And if I did it, then I can undo it!

    Hang in there, you really do look awesome! Trust what everyone says!
    2465 days ago
  • JEWELS571
    I may be way off on this, but I find when I haven't been eating enough or have worked out so much, ie running 13.25 miles, that I am naturally more hungry and I have to give in to little temptations. Your body will tell you when you need an ice cream or 3, right?? The key, and you know this, is to only keep things around you that are OK to have 1 or 2 or 3 of. IE, ice cream bars that are 100 calories or less. I much prefer the 40 calorie fudgcicles or something in the sugar free area.

    Ok that out of the way, you went a week without a cheat? That'a perfect! Everyone deserves a cheat at least one day a week! Sounds like you are on a roll and no reason to worry. Stay consistent and don't fret the number so much, it could just as quickly go the other way.

    BTW, thanks for commenting on my negative nelly blog!! I should have called her Debbie Downer! It's too bad she felt it necessary to talk down to me like that, I've never said anything that wasn't encouraging to her and everyone else in our group.

    Keep up the great work!!!
    2466 days ago
  • ARUNNINGKAT
    I have been feeling the need to get truly committed to this journey too! No more kinda working on it. It is time to get serious and do what I know will make me feel fabulous! And what is it with the same pounds coming and going so fast that it is almost like they never leave???

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    2466 days ago
  • SARAHSMC22
    I know exactly how you feel. I am in the same boat. Same weight fluctuating since January. What a waste the past five months feel like.
    2466 days ago
  • REFIRE
    Don't get frustrated, what's important is that you ARE battling those same damn 5-7 pounds, and you keep LOSING them! You are not allowing them to stay on your body, you are working them off. Losing more or not, you are still tracking and monitoring your weight. Be super proud of the awesome size 6 you are, and when you lose more than that is just the icing on the cake.
    2466 days ago
  • TINA8605
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    You know what to do!!!! Keep in tough at SP. We can help you get back on track and continue on track. Reach out and you will find a hand to help you up!
    2466 days ago
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