Mid-month check-in

So... you may have seen my status updates but in case you didn't: I quit the gym!
It was probably the worst job I've ever had (including food service, political cold-calling, and cleaning house for a junkie transsexual friend who did video sex work out of her bedroom. Think about it... or don't).

So I am currently 100% unemployed again.
I've had some good interviews and am crossing my fingers on a part-time gig with some really really cool boudoir photographers a friend referred me to, but still no solid "real" job prospects yet. I'll keep "pounding the pavement."

The great thing about this is that although I am down a gym membership, I can focus a lot more effort on fitness again without 6-8 hours a day chained to a desk. I am unsure of whether the lost calorie burn from being on my feet during that time-- not to mention walking to and from-- will offset what has so far been reasonably increased exercise.

Except for the first few days, May hasn't been THAT great for steps yet, so I am up to 15K today in an effort to reverse that. (Saturdays are typically my laziest days, too, so go me! )

Food, too, has been less than perfect, largely due to the quart of ice cream gifted to me by my son for Mothers' Day and the continued indulgence that my boyfriend's birthday turned into when there were not enough German Chocolate Cake-eaters at the event.

It has been better than April, though. So hopefully I will see some results from all of my efforts, and the 4 or 5 pounds I've put back on will magically disappear. I have been frustrated for a while now with a lack of tangible results when I feel like I do push hard. Obviously I have to push HARDER. But I may have to come to terms with the reality of a body that is strong and fit and does many wonderful things for me but is never as "hot" as I'd like.

My goals for the next 2 weeks are to keep working out as much as I can (a friend can bring me as a guest to her gym, and I'm doing a lot of hills and mini-hikes in the woods with some light weights at home), try to keep the steps up over 10K every day, and focus on the food. I have to cut the massive sugar binges out of my diet and have more days where I manage to get through the entire day without screwing up what has otherwise been a good day. Tracking ahead (and sticking with it) and drinking tea when the cravings hit are my strategies.