Brand New Day... Literally
Friday, May 02, 2014
I have a confession. I didn't start on the first day. Whew. Got that one off my chest. But really. I know all the reasons why I "should" get healthier, thereby losing weight. I know how to do it. I've read more stuff than I can begin to tell you. But, I am my own worst enemy and boy am I a rockstar with excuses.
Until last night. I'm friends with my man's mother on Facebook and she posted an update about his younger sister, who's 19. She's really quite ill and has taken a turn for the worse. Not quite at death's door... Yet... So his mom and I chatted a bit and she talked about how rough it is to see your child going through this and how strong Tia is being.
And boy did I get a wallop. What am I doing to myself?! Here's this beautiful 19 year old young girl who would LOVE to do the things my body can do and she simply can't. And yet here I am, with this body that can take a heck of a beating and keep on trucking, and I treat it like utter and complete crap. I mean, really, what am I doing?!
Sure, I've heard stories about sick people, and commercials from St. Jude's always make me cry, but it didn't directly affect me... I don't mean to sound like a jerk, but it wasn't in my realm if that makes sense. I felt bad for folks and I did think I'm so fortunate, but it never went beyond that. But now there's this personal connection that makes is so much more real.
I am so fortunate in my health, so fortunate in this rather beefy body that is capable of so much strength. I am so healthy these days emotionally and mentally - sure I still have some ways to go on both fronts, but I'm so much better. So why is my body lagging behind?
Then this morning, another wallop. My dad fell pretty hard, but is mostly okay. He also has horrible blood pressure and there is history of heart attacks in his family. I've said before that if I do it, my dad most likely would also. He and I are so alike in body. He needs me to do this. He doesn't know this, but he needs it now more than ever. And while these journeys should always start with ourselves, if I'm thinking I'm not good enough, then I'll use my dad as my back-up.
So I'm going to make a little picture collage on my phone with these reminders, so that when I feel weak or I'm making one of my oh so brilliant excuses, I have it to remind me of not only of what I am working for, but WHY.