Dear Self,

Ok Self, its time to have a serious conversation about the last 2 months. You have honestly lost your healthy way. Lets not even talk about the lbs and chub that is so discouraging, let make this strictly about the way you feel. In the last 2 months every time I wake up I have to literally drag myself out of the bed. More often then not I feel all out of sorts due to dehydration. A year ago all these sensation just felt like normal crappy life but after 9 months of a healthy lifestyle I know the signs. I know the bloated gassy feeling is not normal its from all the fat my body doesn't want. I know the headache and low energy is based on several factors 1. I am not drinking nearly enough water 2. I am robbing my body of needed nutrition and feeling it with empty calories 3. my body needs movement, it needs exercise, without I just feel crappy! Now self you can continue on this destructive path because it is "easier" or you can recommit to your health. Recommit to feeling and looking better. Recommit to being who you want to be and not just floating through life stuffing your face because food taste good and you are "to tired" or "to overwhelmed" to put forth the effort. Stop letting feelings and people get in the way of who you want to be, of who you are.

This is not who I want to be

Its that easy!! Its that hard..

Because I do love myself!!

I started because I didn't like who I was. I didn't like how I felt. Do I really want to take steps backwards??

Its not over though.

I've learned through a lot of faith and hard work that the girl I thought I was was not the girl I had to be. In 2012 if you asked me if I could run 3 miles I would have laughed in your face. Now I am that girl. I can be someone new tomorrow!

I know this to be true but somewhere I let myself forget. I won't forget today!

There is nothing more I can add to this other then JUST DO IT!

I love you! You can do this! You are worth it! Its time to put on your big girl panties and fly!