Monday, March 31, 2014
For the Spring 5% challenge I was given an assignment to list all the reasons I want to lose weight, how I want to look, what I want to change, how I want to feel, and what I will do with a healthier me...
Well... where to start.
I have been a "curvy girl" my entire life. My weight always bothered me. I never dated or put myself out there because of my own personal ideas about my weight instead of other peoples. I convinced myself that when it came to dating "once I lost weight" I would meet someone. I convinced myself that focusing on everything but myself was enough. I devoted my time to friends, family, school, work... everything but taking care of myself.
Finally, at 23 I became incredibly ill and dealt with a ton of medical issues. I ended up having to be on very high steroids for almost 5 years. During this time I gained almost 80lbs on top of my already curvy frame. That was 8 years ago and I have only managed to lose about 15-20 of those lbs. But the strangest part of it all, is gaining all that weight made me finally accept the person that I was. The person that I am. And I love this person. I also know that I deserve better for myself. I know that I am capable of more.
Today I shudder when I think of all the self doubt I possessed before. I want more than anything to go back and slap me upside the head and point out all the great things about myself. Point out that the scale does not define who I am. Which brings me to why I want to lose weight...
1. For my health.
2. For the family that I want one day.
3. To prove to myself and everyone else in my life that I can accomplish any goal I set my mind too.
4. To be able to be more active. I want to bike ride, and hike, run, swim and a million other things... my weight hinders some of these.
5. And I would be lying if I didn't at least include some thing about clothes.