Letting go of jealousy
Friday, March 28, 2014
I have a friend at work who has been doing Bob Harper's Jump Start to Skinney diet/exercise program. She has lost 17 lbs this month. People are complimenting her on her weight loss. She looks great. She has worked hard. She deserves recognition.
Silly me is jealous that people are noticing her weight loss, but no one has noticed mine. Perhaps it is because she lost the weight quickly. Perhaps it is because she needs to lose less weight than me. Perhaps it is the way she carries her weight. I don't know. I'm jealous she was able to lose that much weight in a month. I'm jealous she looks great. Really?
Actually I am happy for her. We talked about our weight struggles frequently. We have dieted together before and been each other's accountability person in the office. We encourage each other to stay out of the kitchen on bagel/cookie day.
Reality? I am not willing to go the extremes she has to lose the weight. I am trying to adapt to a new lifestyle. I am not in a race to see a number on the scale next week. I am trying to find a solution that will work for me for a lifetime. I don't eat only fish, chicken and veggies. I have bread (in limited quantities). I have a cookie once in a while. I am doing just fine right where I am.
My goal was to lose 5 pounds a month, while adapting a healthier lifestyle which includes eating better and exercising daily. I have done that. I have done that and more.
I started this journey at 208.4 lbs and at the end of February was 192.2 lbs for a loss of 16.2 lbs. That is ahead of my goal. I have gained stamina and strength from working out. I don't drink 4-5 sodas a day. I need to quit comparing apples and oranges. Both are awesome when not compared to each other!
So I have to share my woohoo moment. I bought a new pair of capri pants in a size 16. Yep! Out of the plus sizes and into the normal sizes. No more size 20 pants!!! Yippee!!!!! AND I bought a new sports bra that was an xtra large!
Nothing like the feeling of accomplishment! It will be interesting to see what the scale says at the end of March! Hopefully it will be approving of my efforts.
Soooooo, letting go of that jealousy replacing it with contentment. I am just where I am supposed to be.
Have an awesome weekend!