I have been disappointed in myself for a long time. I rejoined Weight Watchers last June and still haven't hit my 5 percent goal yet on getting back down to goal weight. I have been coasting and losing a little, but at least not gaining. And I have found a Weight Watcher group with a bond and there is so much love and motivation in that room every Saturday.
The coasting has been my fault. I will be doing great all week, then something happens emotionally, and I reach for food I shouldn't
or wine that dissolves my resolve and have blown it by weigh in day on Saturday
Yesterday, for the first time, I decided to throw out the wine
I will not have anymore drink until I am back at the brink (of goal weight, that is)
I need to turn down a different road now. I am 50 and the road I have been on is too winding. Involves too many curves, sticks and stones, and I keep tripping and skinning my knees.
It's now time to take it to the next level. Before I die, just once, I want to be that skinny girl that people look at and admire. And to have self-confidence in my looks. Just once, it would be nice and not have to worry about what pants I can or can't fit into this week, because of the binge bloat. Just once, to not be "average" but amazing. Just once, to have overcome the desire to turn to food when life gets tough.
I have seen many Sparkpages where people have done just that, and I want to be one of them. It is AMAZING to see these transformations in people.
For now, when the food demons hit me, usually at night,
I will be Sparking and looking for help. It's going to be hard and I can't do this alone. So, if you are dealing with the same demons, let's add each other as
and we can get each other through this.
Together, we can do this.