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Mid March Meditation

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Just to get this out here: I have gone a long time without white carbs -- it's been almost a month. During the first week I lost a few pounds quickly. But then the weight loss has stalled. I now need to figure out how to tweak my diet some more. I've been thinking more and more about how I must extricate food from the pleasure equation.

I can find deep pleasure in poetry, art, contemplation, exercise and movement, scenery, and animals. I can find guarded pleasure with some people. Certain tastes and aromas amaze me.

But I need to sever the pleasure connection with food because I cannot do it a little bit; as many others here know and say, white carbs are my dirty little addiction. And brown carbs too! Through some sort of internal chemical sea lane, a piece of brown rice or a whole wheat cracker can navigate through and capture my entire body and spirit faster than pirates boarding a ship.

Why cannnot I be so captured by the visions of a great painting? Why don't I compulsively visit art galleries and museums?

I used to be a smoker. Many many many years ago and it's been a really long time since I wanted to smoke and I only think about it when I read about taxes on nicotine, etc. Can I sever my relationship with white carbs this way? I gave up smoking cold turkey finally---I had so many plans. Smoke only on Thursdays; smoke only after 7 PM, smoke only in odd-numbered days, smoke only with lipstick. Smoke only without wearing lipstick. Smoke only when wearing slippers. Smoke only when wearing sneakers. Smoke only in the first 30 minutes of an hour. So many rules and twists and turns that I contorted myself through. Finally I realized that there could be only one rule for me: SMOKE NEVER.

Will that be my reconciliation with White Carbs?

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    Boy I have no answers to this. We have a break room in my work building, and all the leftover meeting and party food goes there. There are always cookies, chips, pies, crackers, candies, etc on the table, but thank God they are almost always store bought and I can tell myself they are probably nasty. But Friday a loaf of freshly baked cheddar bread with a pot of Amish butter appeared. Extending your metaphor, I was boarded and captured in the time it took it to try and turn away. The only good thing was that I called the two pieces of bread I had lunch, and didn't eat the one I'd prepared. But what stayed with me was the speed with which my willpower evaporated faced with homemade white carbs!

    Good argument for cold turkey, I guess.
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    Congrats on the progress you've made.


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  • TREV1964
    I have never smoked and never intend to - this is one thing I am so very thankful for. Friends of mine who do smoke have gone through hell trying to give up and as smokers with the price of tobacco here they are notably a lot poorer for it.


    2646 days ago
    This is a lovely meditation. I'm proud of you for really thinking about your choices. I sympathize with the "rules and twists and turns" of your plans ... I do that all the time and I think you're right, in that it doesn't work.
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    I battle with this everyday. I had to laugh at your smoking description . . . Oh, the complicated rules I used to make up until finally I had enough and quite. I think it's been close to 10 years . . . the same with soda. After I got off the smokes, I kicked the daily soda habit and have not looked back. But both of those were easy when compared to white carbs. Like you, I behave the same way with brown rice and wheat products. I can eat steel cut oats in moderation and always eat them savory. I can eat the occasional white potato but that's about it. It is a struggle and I have a hundred tricks in my bag but this one is tough. This week I made an egg white frittata with zucchini and then cut it up with a pizza wheel to imitate spaghetti with red sauce and cheese. Every week I try something new. I congratulate you on your success because I know how difficult it is. We have to keep at it for our health, which is worth it in the end.
    2647 days ago
    i am not a cold turkey person. i have never smoked so i never had to worry about quitting. i find simple cards are a huge part of my diet and i cut out snacking on crackes and i avoid certain breads because i overeat when near them but i dont enjoy them.

    i have been trying to look at food assomething that gives me nutrients and can be enjoyed. i try to get whole foods - no 100-calories snack packs. real whole produce. most diet foods are loaded with chemical. i am trying to give up mountain dew for 46 days. i have 35 days left. i still crave it but i want to get it out of my mind.
    2648 days ago
  • POPSY190
    I agree with 1SALMON1, the cravings for particular things never go away. So the "dangerous" things are basically never-things for me; potato crisps, any salty version of a snack, like salted nuts, are a disaster area for me. But I can eat some things like potatoes, which have nutritional value, without overdoing it.
    It's a puzzle difficult to solve and I have no real explanation for the love of some food. The sensation from loved food might be similar to that gained from great art works, the beauty of nature, etc. but I think the origin of the craving must be different and have something to do with atavistic instincts gone wrong!! emoticon
    2648 days ago
    never is a long time. Can you handle white carbs from time to time without sabotaging your diet?
    2648 days ago
    I read Wheat Belly and I stopped eating wheat almost immediately after reading just the first few chapters. I do eat quinoa, which has a lovely flavour and quite a bit more protein that brown rice. Not as much as steak though.
    I've been off the white stuff for over a year now. I plan my meals around veggies. Veggies first is what we've decided for us. We like it. I eat an occasional red potato, yams are groovy, I love brown rice and brown rice pasta, but eat pasta infrequently.

    I think when trying to dial it back in a certain area, you have to take small steps towards change. It's much easier to cut back then cut it out altogether. I find that when one cuts back on something like say, white French loaf, one is able to hear what the body is saying after eating the bread. If you eat it all of the time you don't know how differently you will feel without it. It's h ow you discover what truly feels good in your gut and what doesn't.

    Good Luck!
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    Me too. No white flour / brown flour products. Basically nothing that is so refined it comes out of a box. No bread, pasta, tortillas, noodles - all that kind of starch takes me where I just can't go. But I can eat a bowl of steel-cut oats and flax seed (even with a few grams of sugar) and not become a crazy person. I can eat a little boiled or baked potato with some salt and yogurt on it (and maybe salsa!) and be OK. Those are starches. I don't understand it but I can't argue with it - I lose every time. That pleasure thing is the issue - I do CRAVE those foods and relish eating them in a sort of unconscious blur. If I am well fed and hydrated and haven't eaten refined carbs for a few days I can resist the craving but it doesn't go away.
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    Oh, wow. That's going to be a tough one!

    Congratulations on going almost a month without the white carbs. Just try to keep that streak going day by day, "bird by bird."

    Best wishes for success with whatever you decide is the best course of action for you.


    2648 days ago
    Wishing you the best!
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    It just might work. I think it would be difficult, but not impossible. And if it helps you defeat your carb demons, perhaps it would be worth it. I have considered going paleo, just to see if it would really make me feel better. Or if it just makes me want to live in a cave and drive a stone car. If you try to go white-carb-free, I wish you the best!
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  • MINEA999
    ha, good luck!

    I'll never be able to sever the pleasure connection with food. Especially since I'm going to Italy in May.

    (*and if you never do sever it, look at the bright side, at least you quit smoking...lol)
    2648 days ago
    Good Luck!
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