Mid March Meditation
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Just to get this out here: I have gone a long time without white carbs -- it's been almost a month. During the first week I lost a few pounds quickly. But then the weight loss has stalled. I now need to figure out how to tweak my diet some more. I've been thinking more and more about how I must extricate food from the pleasure equation.
I can find deep pleasure in poetry, art, contemplation, exercise and movement, scenery, and animals. I can find guarded pleasure with some people. Certain tastes and aromas amaze me.
But I need to sever the pleasure connection with food because I cannot do it a little bit; as many others here know and say, white carbs are my dirty little addiction. And brown carbs too! Through some sort of internal chemical sea lane, a piece of brown rice or a whole wheat cracker can navigate through and capture my entire body and spirit faster than pirates boarding a ship.
Why cannnot I be so captured by the visions of a great painting? Why don't I compulsively visit art galleries and museums?
I used to be a smoker. Many many many years ago and it's been a really long time since I wanted to smoke and I only think about it when I read about taxes on nicotine, etc. Can I sever my relationship with white carbs this way? I gave up smoking cold turkey finally---I had so many plans. Smoke only on Thursdays; smoke only after 7 PM, smoke only in odd-numbered days, smoke only with lipstick. Smoke only without wearing lipstick. Smoke only when wearing slippers. Smoke only when wearing sneakers. Smoke only in the first 30 minutes of an hour. So many rules and twists and turns that I contorted myself through. Finally I realized that there could be only one rule for me: SMOKE NEVER.
Will that be my reconciliation with White Carbs?