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an X addict

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

there is something powerful about acknowledging addictive behavior and patterns. once one truly identifies as an addict, it is no longer possible to continue to say 'i can have a bit of X today at the celebration, picnic, dinner time, or whatever' -at least, once i identified as an addict and much later decided to try to live without X' as a part of my daily life, i still had urges and worse, opportunities and events that tempted (and still do tempt) me- but the difference is i KNOW that if i have that X i will not stop...maybe today i will have just a little but soon i'm finding excuses to allow more X and within a short time i'm back to a eating almost nothing other than X. so for today, i just do not have X. i plan that regardless of the celebration or dinner out, or the long, hard day, or the kind gesture by a friend or neighbor, i am only continuing to live sanely IF i choose to plan no possibility for X to enter my mouth. so for today, that is what i choose. so far, X hasn't entered my mouth in just shy of six months. about a month ago, i unfortunately identified a new X and so now it has been about a month since X2 has entered my mouth. there are moments that aren't easy. but overall it's much better than the way i was living and eating before giving up my eXes. ;-p
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    Thank you for the inspiration. I am new to owning my addiction and I can get really caught in the story-telling and the fear of "What?! I'll never eat that again?!?!" As long as I stay focused on the moment, as long as I stay present and live just this day, I can say no. I can have a plan, and I can try, try, try to stick to it. I have more than one X too LOL
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  • MARUKI52
    Sounds to me like you have found a solution to your temptation. Good for you.
    1985 days ago
    Great job! Food addiction does not get the kind of "awareness" that smoking, drugs, alcohol, etc. get. But for those of us who have an addiction, we know how it can spiral our lives out of control. Great blog!
    1986 days ago
  • TINY67
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    1986 days ago
    Yeah you! You are doing what works best for you and it is working. Keep up the great work!
    1986 days ago
    Thank you! That is very useful for me to read. I'm glad to hear a different sound from the 'moderation' slogans.
    Was it OA that helped you come to your conclusions? What was it that helped you find that acceptance?

    And... Oh dear! A SECOND X! Is there an end to the X's???

    1986 days ago
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