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Thursday, February 27, 2014

The feeling of emptiness weighting down on me, but yet surrounded by so many things and so many people. I feel like I am drowning in a well of depression that I can't find the bottom of and I can't swim out of it. Sitting here I feel like I am feeling sorry for myself which is something I do not approve of, but at the same time don't have the will to stop. I try to blame other things and the weather, even people but what if it's just me? I was once diagnosed as a manic depressant and doctors put me on meds and really messed up my life. I don't have anyone to talk to, not here, counselors here just guess and demand I admit to things happening that didn't ever and because I wont they say I am in denial.... Well life is what is....
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    This time of year - grey days, cold, short daylight hours (even if it is getting a little better) can definitely contribute to feeling blue. Daylight Savings begins in just over a week on March 9th and maybe that will help a little?

    You have lots of folks to talk to here, people who care and will listen and who support you. We all have days when things are just not right or acceptable. Hang in there - this too shall pass.As Scarlet O'Hara said - Tomorrow is another day!
    2286 days ago
  • BEEJAY49
    You are not alone here on Sparks and we are here for you. What happens here stays here as far as most of us are concerned so feel free to vent or yell! We love you and want you to feel better. I will be praying. Love you! HUGS!
    2286 days ago
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    emoticon It's important that you look at your comments- clearly you are not alone. This is why emoticon ! There is a huge community here- with lots of people, who have (or may currently) felt the same way. We do a weekly meeting at my work and we end each one with a inspirational quote. This week it was: "Don't let the fear of what you can't do interfere with the things you can do." In this case I'd switch it up a bit... "Don't let your past problems interfere with your current problems." Each day is a new day. While today may have not been a good day, tomorrow is a new day! Start fresh! Keep your head up! Know that you are not alone on your journey! emoticon
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    Comment edited on: 2/28/2014 12:14:28 AM
    I think we all go through lows in life. I will not say 'I know what you are going through' because I don't think anyone can fully understand another person's struggles. But, I did experience depression, and it comes and goes. There were times when it felt like everything was bleak and things would never get better. The key is to 1)push through it 2) distract yourself with activities, music, fresh air, and 3) know and realize that 'this too shall pass'.

    I hope there are more sunny days real soon for you. Feel good.
    2287 days ago
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    *HUGS* as someone who has been on and off antidepressants a number of times I can honestly say there are many reasons for depression and many ways to over come it but the reality is in an honest world everyone has had "the blues" and some like myself have been at the bottom of the well of despair :-( The fact people try and put their reasons onto someone else or assume there is "hidden " reasons says more about their issues than yours xx You may not have any big boogey man in the closet you may just be bogged down with lots of little stuff, or there may be a boogey man you don't even know about yet - either way surround yourself with positivity and light, sleep well, eat well, exercise all these things help. Look into natural remedies for anxiety or depression as they are similar and what ever you do don't close yourself off from those that care - YOU ARE NOT ALONE xx
    2287 days ago
    I do believe with all my heart that if you find a way to focus on something or someone outside your self the emptiness will pass. I choose to focus on a loving God since there is no good in me. But you choose.
    2287 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14253479
    1st of all we are here supporting your journey no matter where it takes you. 2ndly if everyone was honest they'd all say they were depressed most of the time and the other parts of their life they simply don't remember.

    There are some factors beyond just seeing that life isn't what we were told it was going to be. It could be weather, not enough exercise - that doesn't apply to you - what you are eating and not eating --- I'd recommend green smoothies or green juice, and/or any medication your taking.

    Find someone you can confide in on your home turf also. Feeling alone as you described it is something that is very common and never mentioned.
    2287 days ago
    Find your fulfillment in God. He is the hope for our future.

    Don't give up. It's never too late to make the right choice.
    2287 days ago
  • DR8561
    I suffer from seasonal depression. Getting sunshine (or brightening the inside lights or even going to a tanning bed) can help. I hope you feel better soon! emoticon
    2287 days ago
    Keep working at trying to see the up side of life. emoticon
    2287 days ago
    I find when I am really low that if I offer up a prayer to God he sees me through it.
    2287 days ago
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