5 large garbage bags of clothes
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
5 garbage bags of clothes are on the front porch waiting for AM Vets truck to pick them up.
Got a card in the mail that they were coming by today and needed all kinds of things including women's clothes -- all sizes.
I have had a little stash building, so really worked on the closet last weekend. Everything that was sloppy big went into bags or into trash. Also into trash went pants that I had altered and realtered and no longer resembled any size of pant. OK, I kept a couple of shirts as workout wear, and one pair of "before" undies. Really need to get rid of shoes that have become too big, but can't afford to replace all the shoes at once.
I am sad....sad about the waste of money (there were still clothes with tags), sad about the waste of life in those clothes, sad that I have nothing to wear and just an unidentifiable sadness. Going to have to work through this.....maybe it is ok to just be sad about it.
I also see the good side of it----it is an accomplishment. OK, a huge accomplishment. 127 lbs gone, journey not near over, but past the half way hump. Slowly building a selection of clothes that I can wear without looking too big. Have 4-5 outfits for work and several workout clothes sets, couple pairs of jeans. Feel so much better....so much better.
Need my sewing machine back from shop so I can get to work on some alterations.
My daughter joined weight watchers with me about 10 days ago and is inspiring me to keep "on the good foot". She is starting high school next fall and wants to look better, I just want her healthier --- have guilt about how she has gotten to the point where she could lose 50 lbs at 13.....trying to be good role model now. Can't fix the past, but can create a new future.
It is raining today, I love rainy days.....maybe I will go for a walk. Zumba on the plan for the day as well. Maybe that will all help in shaking off this mood.......never cried over clothes before.....