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Thursday, February 20, 2014

Ok this needs to be short & sweet. Last Tuesday I was looking up ways to end my life cause I felt like I don't matter to anyone anymore. So instead of ending it all I went to my doctor. He sends me to a hospital for evaluation. They say that there's nothing wrong with me & sends me home. I talked to my assistant store manager & she said that I was one of the most important people at work. I got wrote up the Monday before I looked up ways to end things. My husband keeps telling me just go to work you'll be fine. Well work is what is stressing me out. I have been in the same position for almost 7 1/2 years. Never got a promotion & seems like I'm invisible unless they want something from me. My family hardly ever calls & I have no friends to call to lean on. My husband doesn't seem to understand. Anyway if anyone was wondering how things have been, that's it. Well need to go get my husband up for a meeting he has to go to.
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  • DJ4HEALTH
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    2629 days ago
  • SLIMMERKIWI
    Hi Audrey - You are in my thoughts!

    The hospital may have sent you home, but I would still be inclined to push for help. Continue talking with your Dr - continue going to an Emergency Dept. if you are having suicidal thoughts .... or ANY thoughts of self harm.

    Below are a list of Hotlines you can phone. They can be VERY helpful.

    National Suicide Hotlines USA
    Toll Free, 24/7

    1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)

    1-800-273-T
    ALK (1-800-273-8255)

    For individual USA State hotlines:
    http://suicidehotlines
    .com/ and select the dropdown for your State

    • Call 411 and ask for: Suicide Hotline
    • Dial 0 and ask for: Suicide Hotline
    • Check the FRONT of the phone book for:
    • suicide prevention
    • crisis intervention
    • hotlines - crisis or suicide
    • community crisis center
    • county mental health center
    • hospital mental health clinic
    • Or. call 911 and ask for help. Tell them you are in suicidal danger.

    At the very least, I would be making an urgent appointment with your Dr and asking for a referral to a Therapist who can help you.

    I am sending you BIG hugs,
    Kris xxx
    2636 days ago
  • WORKOUTWITHPAM
    Hello ODDIEPORTER,

    I am sorry you are feeling so 'down.' You really do matter. From looking at your photos, I can tell that you matter to your husband, and I am 100% certain that you matter to Muffin. Also, you matter to us here at Spark People. We are here for you, and we will help you in any way that we can. Please keep us updated on how you are doing.

    HUGS
    Pam


    2636 days ago
  • MILLISMA
    Audrey,

    You are a very important person. Please reach out for some counseling. Your doctor was very wrong to just send you to the hospital. Many times, there are help lines through your work. If so, please start there but reach out to talk to someone. Blog if that will help you. Know that there are people that do care and are concerned for you. Please let me know how you are doing.

    hugs...Mary Anne
    2636 days ago
  • SPARK_COACH_JEN
    Hi ODDIEPORTER

    If you are really having these thoughts, you should call a suicide and/or crisis hotline right away. There are 1-800 numbers for this type of thing, so you don't need to have somewhere local to go or long distance on your phone. If you need me to find one, let me know and I would be happy to do that for you.

    SparkPeople is a great place for support, but we are not equipped to deal with these kinds of issues. You need to talk to a professional who specializes in these kinds of things. There are other ways to get help if your doctor didn't provide any. Things can get better if you reach out and talk to someone about how you're feeling.

    Let me know if we can do anything to help.

    Coach Jen

    2636 days ago
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