Please know that I mean no disrespect to my sparkfriends involved in 12 step programs...I admire you for your strength and courage. As a sibling, daughter, and granddaughter of alcoholics, I know all too well the power of an addiction.
I need to face reality. I am addicted to food. All food. Not just sugar, not just salt (although, those ARE two of my favorites)..All food. Kinda stinks that I must eat it to live. I cannot quit it like I did with the smokes (9 years smoke free!!!).
When a family member was discussing her mindset as she dealt with her alcohol addiction, everything just clicked. I guess I've always known--just been in denial. I cannot eat just a piece of cake...if you leave me alone, I will keep eating it. I cannot eat just one cookie, if you leave me alone, I will eat all of them. I can't stop. Well...that's not true--I can stop, I just don't.
I go through periods of great, balanced healthy eating (I am in one now!
I just need to remember that "one day at a time" mantra.
Now that I've admitted it--to myself--to you, my sweet, sweet supportive sparkfriends....I cannot hide. I won't be "left alone" to eat all the cookies. I will turn to my family, to my friends and to YOU.
I will blog, reach out, call, walk, dance, the next time I'm left alone with something unhealthy--something that I know is a "danger" food for me.
Everything is too important. Life, my daughter, my family, my friends, my class...me.
It's unbelievable how great I feel right now. Well, I've admitted it. Now the hard work begins.