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My name is Brenda...and I'm addicted to food.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Please know that I mean no disrespect to my sparkfriends involved in 12 step programs...I admire you for your strength and courage. As a sibling, daughter, and granddaughter of alcoholics, I know all too well the power of an addiction.

I need to face reality. I am addicted to food. All food. Not just sugar, not just salt (although, those ARE two of my favorites)..All food. Kinda stinks that I must eat it to live. I cannot quit it like I did with the smokes (9 years smoke free!!!).

When a family member was discussing her mindset as she dealt with her alcohol addiction, everything just clicked. I guess I've always known--just been in denial. I cannot eat just a piece of cake...if you leave me alone, I will keep eating it. I cannot eat just one cookie, if you leave me alone, I will eat all of them. I can't stop. Well...that's not true--I can stop, I just don't.

I go through periods of great, balanced healthy eating (I am in one now! emoticon )
I just need to remember that "one day at a time" mantra.
Now that I've admitted it--to myself--to you, my sweet, sweet supportive sparkfriends....I cannot hide. I won't be "left alone" to eat all the cookies. I will turn to my family, to my friends and to YOU.

I will blog, reach out, call, walk, dance, the next time I'm left alone with something unhealthy--something that I know is a "danger" food for me.

Everything is too important. Life, my daughter, my family, my friends, my class...me.

It's unbelievable how great I feel right now. Well, I've admitted it. Now the hard work begins.

Thanks friends. emoticon
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  • JAMDRGN76
    Hi BREN!! Welcome to Food Addictions. emoticon I am sooooo with you on this. I will lean on you, and you can lean on me. I pased up M&Ms for strawberries today. We can do this love. emoticon emoticon
    2433 days ago
  • FUNGIRL81005
    Awesome blog!!! Ya!! You can do it!!
    One step...One Day!!
    2433 days ago
  • FUNGIRL81005
    Awesome blog!!! Ya!! You can do it!!
    One step...One Day!!
    2433 days ago
  • STOPPLAYING2011
    Hello Birthday twin I,m so proud of you for admitting your weakness, but don,t despair you did it once it once you can do it again emoticon emoticon emoticon WE HAVE A BDAY coming LET,S GET IT RIGHT..... GET IT TIGHT ..... emoticon
    2434 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    Wow Bren, that took courage and alot of inner reflection! Way to go for putting yourself out there. I admire people that can admit it and know there weekness. I don't have this problem but I can totally relate when it comes to one thing. Those stupid little lemon girl scout cookies. I told myself I would only have 1 serving which is 5, and that seems reasonable, but when I was done with those, I truly needed more. So I had at least 10 if not a couple more. I finally had to force myself to close the stupid bag and put them away and make myself go workout instead of thinking of them. It is a tough thing that unless you have it, it is probably hard for the average person to understand. Your mantra is great though. one day at a time. One choice at a time and keep those trigger foods far far away! You are doing so great and I am so glad to have met you here!
    Keep up the great work and you have a great plan in place! You can do this!
    Here is to you!!!!
    2434 days ago
  • REENYBEANS
    I know how you feel, there are certain foods that just call out to me. My Sunday school class and I are starting a book called Made to Crave which I am hopeful will help with this.
    2434 days ago
  • MOTHEPRO
    You took the words right out of my head! I've been spiraling out of control the past 2 months. I will turn it around. One day at a time.
    2434 days ago
  • KELLYFIT123
    Since you're in a good place now, I'm curious, are there lessons you take from quitting smoking? Or is it a different beast altogether?

    Good luck, my friend! Keep your green smoothie on! (Or something like that, LOL)
    2434 days ago
  • 68ANNE
    Getting into the discussion mid sentence so to work and feeling like there is a vital part missing but maybe if I muddle along as best I can then it will all work out



    I think,,,,,,, hummmmm
    2434 days ago
  • JINX6543
    I could have spoken some of the same words not long ago. I'm not sure how to help specifically, because we are all so different regarding what will finally click and start working for us individually. But I can promise that I'm here for you. We are all here, your friends, your sisters, to support you and talk you out of the fridge. I still struggle, often even, but I have learned things about food and healthy eating and cooking over the past few years. Things that help. As we get to know each other, you will hear lots of tips and information from me (I "talk" A LOT!). It'll come naturally in the course of being on this journey together. It is impossible to teach my new friends everything I've learned all at once, but I will post in the forums, and post blog entries and some of the things I've learned will be apparent, and I do hope they help whoever chooses to take information and run with it.

    For me, it's all about my loathing... no, really, LOATHING of exercise. I hope to learn and be inspired by those of you in my new circle who thrive on exercise. I need to get my butt off the couch to do more than cook a healthy dinner for my family once a day. I need to move!

    Let's keep an eye out for each other, Girlfriend! I love how you interact with people. You are truly a one-of-a-kind soul!

    Tina~
    2434 days ago
  • TAICHIDANCER
    By the way, love the background pic.
    2434 days ago
  • TAICHIDANCER
    Well, I hear you. I also have a book suggestion if you're interested ...
    2434 days ago
  • MADMANSMAMA87
    Bren,

    I feel your pain so I want to let you know how I overcome wanting to stuff my face with the not so healthy food options! It is not an easy thing to admit & I admire your strength! Personally, every time I feel like I am going to devour that whole plate of cookies or a pint of ice cream the first I do is look at a picture of my son & imagine all the life I will get to spend with him by getting healthier. Usually that is enough to pull me through but, if seeing his face doesn't stop me from wanting to eat everything in sight, I will get myself a HUGE glass of water & I begin counting from 1 to 100 slowly, taking a sip of water between each number. 9 time's out of ten I don't want what I was about to demolish ten minutes prior by the time I am finished counting but, if I still do, I will allow myself 1 piece & build the rest of my day around that so it evens out:) You can do it, Bren! I believe in you!!

    Stay Positive,

    Jes
    2435 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/18/2014 9:03:24 PM
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