Leaving a friend behind.....
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
I don't want to say it - but right now I HATE the scale. I've been whining about Mr Scale because he isn't confirming my efforts. Today I put Mr Scale in the basement. Really. The basement. Out of site. I will have monthly visitation with him on the first of the month, but that is it! Mr Scale WAS my friend. Now he is holding me back. It's time to move on.
He is really getting to me and the numbers he is showing me gets that chorus stirred up - you know the one - the one that says "You will never get there" "All that work and nothing, why bother" "Go ahead, eat the pizza, you will feel better" "And this is the first month of serious commitment, the weight should be coming off easier - what are you going to do when it gets harder?" "Yep, you will never get there" "Hang it up".
Mr Scale not only hasn't moved in the right direction - he moved in the wrong direction! Yep, I hate him!
I am telling myself maybe it could be water retention - I have been drinking tons of water and I don't think I am putting out near what I am taking in (but then again, I am sweating some out). Maybe I am building muscle - lifting all that snow! Maybe I just need to go to the bathroom! Maybe it's.....
OK - so stop.
I have listened to that chorus of negativity my whole life. No more. Not today. I am not wasting my time or efforts on that, I have better things to do.
It is what it is. So what. Just keep doing those right things Barb. Good things will happen. It won't always be like this. Someday the scale will catch up. Someday your clothes will be too big. Someday you will rock a smaller size. Someday you will feel healthier. Someday it won't be such an effort to bend over and tie your shoes, or climb those flights of stairs. That day is NOT today. But that day will NEVER come if you quit. Screw the pizza. Eat your healthy lunch girl.
Go to the Y tonight. I bet when you get there you will be inspired by someone. I bet there will be someone you will try to keep up with as best you can. I bet there will be someone there who will be trying to keep up with you! I bet you will be inspiring someone else! Then reward yourself with some time in the whirlpool. You won't regret it, I promise! It will certainly feel better than watching tv on the couch.
You are making progress. You are able to lift heavier weights than when you started. You are able to walk further and at a quicker pace than when you started. You are drinking more water than soda! WooHoo!
Stop, turn around and look at where you were when you started. You are not there today. You my dear are awesome and doing just fine. In fact, you rock girl! Focus on your goal and NOT a number. Come on, get up, one foot in front of the other, we have places to go and we are not going to get there sitting along side the road whining about the loss of our friend Mr Scale. Someday he will come to his senses and catch up with us. Let's get moving! I have faith in you.