Sub Zero Slump/That Person Who Shares Calories
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Reflecting back on this entry I realize I really just needed to get some of this off my chest. I didn't spend much time proofing it because it came out in rant form. I'm sure we all know how that feels. I certainly hope you are having a nicer (warmer) day than I am.
Part 1: Sub Zero Slump
I'm tired of being stuck inside waiting for warmer weather...I'm going crazy! Normally I wouldn't mind the winter so much, but it's been so unusually cold I'm afraid to go for walks or do anything outside. When the temperature is single digits, the wind chill is way below zero and even the smallest amount of water becomes black ice there is really no good place to enjoy the outdoors. Unfortunately for me, I don't particularly enjoy any winter sports either.
The worst part about being stuck inside is the constant access to food...and of course I'm bored and feeling down so I'm eating more. I know it's not logical, but it doesn't make it any less true. I try so hard to make good choices, but it just seems harder this time of year. I just feel like I'm gaining more and more weight and I'm not quite sure how to find my footing.
Part 2: That Person Who Shares Calories
Oh and just to make things even harder...a person at work put out Girl Scout cookies today. They don't even go on sale until Saturday! Believe it or not, she had a box in her freezer from last year. She is ALWAYS doing this! I call it the Shared Calorie Diet. You know the type. They offer to share their junk food with you so they only get half the calories. Well NEWSFLASH! I can barely contain my own calories...I don't need half of yours!!
Same person even said today "Oh well I figure we'll all just get a little trans fat." Are you serious??? She knows several of us struggle with being healthy. We've asked again and again for her to not bring things in, but apparently this is her lack of willpower. She just can't help herself. She is constantly bringing in things "just to empty out her cupboards." My question is, if you didn't want to eat it, why did you buy it???
Sometimes she even goes out of her way to buy junk food we like. I know she is trying to be nice, but we've asked her not to do it. I just don't understand. For example, last February I very publicly gave up chocolate (I was giving up one item each month). I think it was February 1 or 2 that she offered me my favorite kind of chocolate and said "can't you cheat a little?" O_O I almost punched her. Now I realize we all have different issues, mine is emotional eating, but it doesn't make it any easier for me to understand this problem. She isn't a bad person, but sometimes I want to throw the chocolate back at her and walk away.
It's exceptionally frustrating for me because all it takes is that one thing to start me going downhill. I have a hard time recovering once I've started in on the junk food. I know you aren't supposed to let one thing ruin your day, but it's a theory I haven't yet put into practice.
I just wish I could figure something out. A small change that could get me started. Some small incentive to help me stick to my goals.
Sigh. Here's hoping tomorrow is a better day.