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Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Ok, here's the low down:
I'm a forty something, married mother of three kids.
Technically I'm obese. I wear a size 14/16, XL and in some cases L. I'm 5'6 and 205 pounds. I have blue eyes, big feet(size 10) and a big brain(Chiari malformation).

The latest development....
My heart is being bad. Now, I don' t know how bad, and it may not even be as serious as my primary doc leads me to believe. I had to wear a Holter monitor for a few days because I mentioned to the Doc that my lungs and heart were doing some sort of weird flutter/palpitation thing. If I hold my breath and push down with my diaphragm it goes away. She said it'a probably some sort of anxiety thing I have going and not to worry...but wear this monitor thingy just to make sure. So I thought it was silly and felt foolish wearing scarfs for 2 days in a row(I never wear them) with 6 things stuck to my chest/side and ribcage. Then the phone call comes that I am having "episodes of concern!"
Hows that for a medical definition?!
I'm waiting for my referral to a Cardiologist and I can't exercise until they clear me. SO... in efforts to lose weight I have to go with a diet only.
Calories in-no calories out.
ugh! I'm annoyed and a little irked that my forty something body isn't cooperating. I'm trying to get healthy darnit! I can't do that if the ticker is over ticking. When does the timer ring?
I'm a little scared and honestly irritated. I'd appreciate and prayers you can send my way! A shameless plug at a chance to be selfish.

I hope all is well with you and yours!
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    My thoughts are with you! I hope it turns out to be nothing serious. emoticon
    2324 days ago
    You are NOT being selfish! I love you sister, and I will ALWAYS keep you in my thoughts. I had a heart "episode" in September 2011, and thankfully, it was just the intake of an over abundance of sodium on my part that led to the "irregular" rhythm. It's scary, and hopefully, you'll get some real answers soon. *HUGS*
    2325 days ago
    You are in my thoughts and prayers. Try to relax but do what you can diet-wise but without stressing about it. No extra stress needed right now!
    2325 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14144829
    I don't think it is selfish to ask for moral support and prayer. Those are the kinds of things that build community. Thanks for being open and vulnerable so that we can have the opportunity to grow.
    2325 days ago
    I'm not really sure what the point of MJRVIC2000's comment was, since it doesn't seem at all relevant to your blog, but I will keep you in my thoughts. There is nothing wrong with big feet, though! (Former size 10 here, now a 9)

    You CAN lose weight without exercise, you just need to be diligent with your food choices.
    2325 days ago
  • MJRVIC2000
    Remember that there is a BIG difference between making a DECISION and making a COMMITMENT! God Bless YOU! Vic.
    2325 days ago
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