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Musings on my journey

Monday, January 20, 2014

I started this journey many years ago. 2007. I logged in, received points. Read articles. Cried at some of the pages I read and were jealous of many others. Over the years, I lost about 80 pounds and then managed to gain all of it back and THEN some when I met my husband. Got married, gained more. Had Max. Gained 18 pounds. I thought that was great! MY doctor was also very pleased. A year ago November, some friends in our church started what I thought sounded like a terrible eating plan. I thought, how dumb are they to do something so unhealthy?? All the while, continuing my unhealthy habits of many years gone by. Embarrassing habits. They got better when I met my husband and I just got better about hiding some of them. Around the end of December 2012, hubby and I decided we needed a change. Hubby gained 100 pounds after we met. He blames all my good cooking. LOL.

So he suggested the eating plan our friends were doing. They didn't talk about their success but I could tell they were losing. They sent us the information and I thought there is NO way I can do this. I had read and followed the eating plans on Spark and knew hot dogs were not the healthiest option for dinner. Hubby was gung ho so I decided if we were going to have any success, we had to do this together so I got on board.

I was always jealous of the people who were able to change their profile picture to "I lost 10, 20, 30, etc pounds." Over the years I got so tired of some buddies and their success, I even went so far as to unfriend some of them. Sad and embarrassing.

I started this journey on January 8th, 2013 -- at 310 pounds. January, I lost weight. Started exercising. February, I lost more weight. Started feeling pretty good about myself. March - September. Still can't believe I am losing weight! September thru today I am at a plateau. I have gained and lost the same 10 pounds 10 times since September. I haven't changed my eating. Still using the same plan and working out 5 days a week. My body has just decided it doesn't want to lose any weight at this moment.

A few years ago, I would have gone back to old habits. Started eating fast food, not caring about what I was eating or not exercising. But not now. Now I know that I need to stay on my regimented eating plan, working out 5 days a week. I am not going back to 310 pounds. I got rid of almost all my clothes as they got too big. I don't plan to buy anymore. I am going to lose this. For me. For my husband. For Max. He deserves to have a mommy who can run and play and be here for him. For as long as I can.

So am I upset that this morning I weighed in at 247 pounds? Nope. Do I want to see the 30's and then the 20's and eventually post a picture of my scale at 199 pounds? YES! But I am content and patient for right now. I know this isn't a race and I didn't gain it in a day. Nor do I expect to lose it in 4 months. But I will do this. And when I do, you will see a big smiling picture of me on my page like a dork saying I DID THIS!

With God, patience, understanding, my wonderful husband, family and friends supporting me I will do this!! One step at a time, one day at a time.

I will be a spark success story!!

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    Nic, you already are a success story and an inspiration to others! I'm so happy for you. Keep going - you WILL reach your goal.
    2490 days ago
    I think you are already a success story its easy to keep going when the scale goes down but it takes determination to keep doing whats right when there is no sign of it on the scales.
    Go you!!!!!
    2494 days ago
    You have already come so very far! You're taking care of business now! And I look forward to seeing that big smiling dork picture in the future. :)
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    2496 days ago
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    You got this, yeah the number on the scale is nice, but enjoy the journey :)
    2497 days ago
    You got this!
    2498 days ago
    You are a success story now because you are an inspiration!
    2498 days ago
    Well sister, you know MY stance on this whole thing... I'm proud of you for fighting and no disappearing into oblivion like so many do. You have the will, so I know you'll find a way! I'm here for you!
    2498 days ago
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