First off, I wanted to start with a
The goodies and the comments have been overwhelming (in the best possible way), and I am so grateful to all of you! I can not believe it is to a point where it'd be pretty impossible to get back to all of you individually, but I appreciate it so much and wanted you to know that!
So yesterday, I was thinking about how blessed I am to have the most amazing Spark Friends ever... but then I started to have a mini panic attack.
I am one of those people that kind of keeps to themselves and I just do my own thing. In fact, the only reason the people at my work know how much weight I've lost is because they asked me, and asked me, and asked me until I finally cracked and told them. It is just something that I wasn't that comfortable talking about unless it was here on Spark. (I am more comfortable talking about it now). I feel like Spark is a safe place to share everything that is weight loss related, and by sharing you are able to receive amazing support.
But my mini panic attack started because I had soooooo many amazing comments the last couple of days, it suddenly occurred to me that it meant 200+ people were "watching my weight loss journey". *SHRIEKS IN HORROR*
All of a sudden, a million thoughts ran through my head:
"What if I fail, what if I gain it all back? What will they think of me then?"
"I will let everyone down if I don't get to my goals, they are counting on me!"
"How embarrassed would you be if you had to admit to these wonderful people that you can't do it after all?"
I started to think there was so much pressure to get to where I want to get, and it freaked me out. I don't do well with pressure when it comes to weight loss. I have had people pressure me to lose weight in the past, and it never ended well. They meant well, don't get me wrong, but they made me feel like I had to do it and I had to do it right that minute, and it was too much for me to handle. Some people thrive under pressure, I am not one of those people.
But after I took a minute to step back and think about it, I realized that the pressure was all in my head! No one is pressuring me to get to my goals... there was no pressure at all, just support!
This site is filled with tons of Spark Cheerleaders!
We are all here, with a common goal to get healthier or stay healthy, and we are one huge team! We share our ups and our downs, we give out support and hugs on a daily basis, and we are always there to congratulate a
moment! That is what makes this site so special! So if you are ever wondering:
"What will my Spark friends think if I tell them I gained all my weight back?"
"What will my Spark friends say if I come back after being MIA for 6 months?"
"What will they think of me if I tell them I've been off track over a month?"
This is what they are going to tell you:
So never be afraid to share with your Spark friends! If you need support, let them know! We are all one big team, working hard to achieve our goals!