I know... it's January and it's so Cliche - but I am back!
Friday, January 03, 2014
I posted this in a thread of my Members SparkTeam (for those of us who all joined in the same week/year!) but then I realized this is my update... and this is where I am... and why I am back!
(I'm just cutting and pasting...)
I am so glad to see that this team still has some active members!
Can you even believe it's been 5 years? Just wow!
I will answer the original questions to sort of re-introduce myself here!
* What have you accomplished in the last 5 years?
Well - SparkPeople was/is such a gift to me! I found it at the right time and I was ready to do BOTH healthy eating (vs dieting) AND exercise. In the past I would somehow gravitate to one or the other but doing both seemed too hard... too bossy... too unachievable but in January of 2008 things just started to click and Spark made it easy! I quickly fell into a new routine and within the first 16 months I consistently (dare I say, nearly easily) dropped about 75 pounds. I had heard rumors of plateaus and walls and such but until May of 2009 I didn't know. But when I hit that wall I hit it full on. I tried nearly everything to get over or around it. I battled hard, changing up my workouts, my calorie ranges, my routines... I tried working out harder, longer... and then I tried giving my body more rest and less intense workouts. For 3 years I battled on - consistently tracking and trying but I began to lose hope. It seemed that it didn't matter WHAT I did... I couldn't lose any more. I was working so hard and I was discouraged to think I was so far from my goal and my body was no longer cooperatiing with me. I couldn't imagine having to work this hard all the time simply to maintain. I slowly, almost unaware, missed logging in food. I would workout but it was less intense and I wasn't really pushing myself. I rarely got 'sore' from a workout or experienced that runner's high from sweating. I was loosing my drive and everything once again felt impossible.
(Sorry - this is turning into a blog post - which I am sadly WAY overdue for... )
Anyway - what I accomplished was slowly fading away! I really DID accomplish quite a lot in my five years here (nearly 80 pounds gone - with 50 STILL gone; I ran several 5K races and NEVER thought that would happen - or that I would enjoy it; I discovered I liked to sweat and I thrived on a good challenge, etc.) ...but I wasn't really finding the freedom and confidence that I gained while losing pounds and inches. As I regained some of the weight, I re-lost some of the joy and energy and confidence! The new/real me that I discovered at Spark was fading... I regained weight in the past year... stopped tracking nearly all together and lost my follow through once again. I KNOW what to do - but in the back of my mind, I hear the facts that it stopped working for me... I hear the excuses again louder than the hope for change. That is why I am back!
*What are you currently working on?
I am back to Tracking my food - A MAJOR tool that makes all the difference! I am looking forward to getting my Local Team a bit more active and finding some balance in my busier life to still workout consistently!
*What challenges did you face?
Right now? It's cold! LOL! Mostly - as I mentioned, my biggest challenge is letting past experience dictate my current actions! I know it worked for me once... it will work again! I am working on consistency in tracking and working out. Honestly - as much as I miss the smaller size clothes - I miss even more the self confidence and energy of being healthy! This time around it really IS less about a number on my jeans and more about feeling comfortable again in my own skin!
*What are your proudest moments?
Running a few 5Ks - each one, getting a better time!
Buying those Skinny Jeans!
Completing P90X (even though I literally did not lose an inch or a pound!)
*Update us on anything you would care to share.
(Well - obviously I already did that!)
I did just purchase the new Spark Activity Tracker. I considered just starting over and creating a new account - but I didn't want to lose the reality of my journey! So I am looking for a few active fun teams - or team members here - to help spur me on and keep me accountable! One of my fav things about SparkPeople is the people! I am an encourager and I love to speak life to people. It got harder and harder to feel like an inspiration when I kept hitting the same wall. It felt less authentic to say that they could do it when I was battling with thoughts and feelings of how I could not!
But - it's January and I am back and determind to find my Spark once again!
Who is with me?