Have I finally grown up?
Friday, December 27, 2013
Well today is my birthday. It's a hard one to have . Not in the fact that I am another year older, it's the actual timing of it. Ok so most people give themselves a treat on their birthday . The problem with mine is that I have been treating myself to holiday treats for a month now. Then of course there are the New Years resolutions just on the other side . You would think after 40+ years I would be used to it. Every year I get on the scale depressed cause I over indulged again and I am not at the magical number I always want to be at. Even when I have weighed less I still wasn't happy. There was always a number that was just out of reach.
Not this year. I am not getting on the scale. I know that I gained since the last time I weighed myself. I don't need to see the number though. I am not gonna let it ruin my day. With that said though I am also not going to go crazy. My day will be as normal as possible. This is nothing new to me. I know what it takes to be successful. I also know how it consumed me to an almost unhealthy point.
So with this birthday I am giving myself the gift of acceptance. The hectic life I lead will be a happy one. My body is not that of a 20 or 30 year old . Nor do I want it to be. I am who I am and I will be happy with it. I want to be a strong example for my teenage daughter. I want her to learn from me how to accept my body for what it is. I have wrinkles and dimples and lots of them. She wears sports bruises with pride. Hence I will wear my age marks with pride also. I have lived a great life and have a lot more to live. I will be strong and hold my head high. Have I grown up? For most part a lot of it happened a long time ago, now I just have to accept it. My gift to myself.