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When It Hits the Fan

Friday, December 06, 2013

Everybody talks about that turning point, right? The moment they KNEW things were going to change, they were going to make an effort. When I first started Spark I didn't have a huge "AH-HA!" moment like most people talk about. I didn't really know what to think about that, but it worked for me...until it didn't. But last night, I had a moment - less of an "AH-HA!" and more of a "OMFG! NOOOOOO!" moment and I knew I was moving toward the right headspace to get myself back in the game. Last night, my son took a picture of me asleep on the couch with the dog. He thought it was cute because our little dog lays ON TOP of whomever, but especially me, and we were both asleep in the same basic position and my son thought it was hilarious. I thought it was horrifying and I've looked at the picture several times since. It makes me want to cry, and scream, and break things...but most of all, it makes me want to redevote myself to my life, my health, and regaining the joy I once felt when I woke up in the morning ready to start a new day.

Sometimes the steps aren't what we think they are and we just have to keep moving to find them in the dark...until someone turns on the light.

I have a ton of reasons for why right now isn't the best time to start this whole thing. Most of them deal with a lack of finances on my part. We're seriously strapped right now with Christmas and the new house, so being creative about eating "right" is going to be interesting...to say the least.

The pros? As far as working out is concerned I'm totally set. My neighborhood is GREAT for walks. People walk and run up and down my street all day every day. I have a huge basement now with a ST machine that will work to get me started and a 70 lb heavy bag, handwraps and gloves. I also have the full WATP DVD set and can watch several workout vids on Amazon Prime whenever I want for FREE. I just bought myself a new roll of KT Tape Pro. As long as I remember to take it slow and steady, I should be fine here. EATING is going to be the challenge.

For now, it's all about serving sizes and shrinking my stomach back to normal again. It won't necessarily be the things I want to fit around my healthy lifestyle, but it will be a start. It will also include drinking a crapton of water to flush out my system (water is FREE!). The only pro here? We have no money to eat out! *lol* You gotta find the YAY where you can, people!

Working toward a new year challenge to get me started in 2014. I have to get back to regular goal setting because it keeps me focused and engaged. It's not about the 100 pounds I need to lose (actually, there's more than that...but let's not even go there), it's about the next 10 and what I'm going to do right now to get them gone for good.
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    I know exactly what you mean about the picture, because our cat does the same thing to me and the fella has occasionally snapped pics that make me want to cry, scream, bury my head in my arms, and break things (most likely the camera), all at the same time.

    I'm giving Whole30 another go round in January, with some very small adjustments, and am hoping I can get the fella to join in. I found your experiences with the program to be really inspiring and helpful. I know that you will be able to set some great goals to challenge yourself with in 2014.
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    I'm doing a Clean Eating challenge with friends on Facebook for the month of January (Actually friends from here who I know on facebook too, like you!). Anyway, interested? I am also goign to have big goals for 2014 and already have an accountability partner. We'll have weekly check-ins. Its time for both of us to get back into this!
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    I know all about that fan. And "the picture". Esther, you have got to be one of the strongest women I know. You know how to persevere and you are more than capable. It's just a matter of keeping your head in the game. As you pointed out there are a lot of opportunities (great walking neighborhood, ST in your home) and we already know you have the strengths (you are very smart, detailed, and persistent; plus you have a supportive family) . Now is the time to assess the threats (stinking thinking? limited finances) and weaknesses and devise a plan to deal with them. You got this. emoticon - Connie
    2707 days ago
    We never like to have those lightbulb moments, but we can like the byproduct of them when they light a spark that catches fire!! :-)

    Good job girlie - you'll get it all figured out!
    2707 days ago
    It sounds like it hit the fan for you big time.

    You have the right attitude. Water is free. Walking is free and I'm sure when you think about it, there are more free things out there.

    Good luck on your journey.

    2707 days ago
    start with a plan then carry on .
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    I'm glad that you are gearing yourself for a new year with your head in the game. You seriously have your own mini gym in that basement of yours :-) I love the attitude of tackling it 10 pounds at a time.
    2707 days ago
    I love the way your mind is working!

    I know eating healhty can be expensive. When finances are strapped, I eat what I have and what DH likes but just eat smaller portions.

    That is so cool you have the bag and gloves. I took a kickboxing class once. Punching and kicking things felt AHMAZING and really trimmed me down.

    You've got this!!!

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