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Friday, November 22, 2013

I'm not a blogger which is pretty evident from the lack of any entries. Today however was a wonderful day. I got on the scale this morning and was amazed to see 145.2 staring back at me. I literally screamed and suddenly heard my dad running downstairs to make sure I was okay. Was I okay?! I'm freakin' fantastic!

It's incredibly satisfying to see that my hard work is paying off. To give you a quick summary on my weight struggles, I graduated high school at 130 and graduated college at 160. Freshman 15? Try 30. I've been at 160 for the past year and a half, slowly giving up the hope that I could make a change.

It's very difficult to look yourself in the mirror and realize that you don't recognize the person staring back at you. I've felt like that everyday for the past 500+ days. What does that mean on a daily basis you might ask? Well, I avoid the mirror as I' m stepping into the shower. I face the wall when trying on clothes in dressing rooms, only turning to face the music when I'm fully clothed. I buy cardigans like other people buy milk because they're long-sleeved and loose- the perfect combination. I don't even think I remember what shorts look like. I engage in constant negative self-talk. CRAY.

It's a vicious cycle and I'm happy to report that I finally feel like I'm getting off the crazy train. Since recommitting to my journey these past 4 months, I've been hitting the gym at least 4x/week with an emphasis on the stairmill, spinning classes and adding in strength training DVDs at home. I haven't eaten out once. Sure, I've succumbed to some desserts but as they're my weakness, it's to be expected. My friends and family have definitely noticed which is a plus! At my current weight, even a 5lb loss is noticeable.

Sooooo, do I look in the mirror and LOVE what I see? No. Am I ready to walk out in a bikini and tell the world to screw itself because I'm beautiful flaws and all? No. But, do I take a little more time to enjoy the view when I'm about to jump into the shower or try on a size 6 (yayyyy!) dress in Target? You're darn right.

I'VE EARNED IT.

I encourage you all to do the same, whatever your size. I wasn’t able to do so 15lbs ago but certainly wish I had the courage too. Your self-worth shouldn’t be so entrenched with the number on the scale. It’s just a number. As long as you’re working towards making the number a healthy one for you, it’s enough. Loving yourself everyday in spite of the scale, that's enough.





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  • no profile photo KAYELLEBEE
    wow, you look fantastic, congrats!!!
    2243 days ago
  • FITNAPTURAL
    You look fantastic gorgeous! Love that hair and the dress! Keep working hard. You'll get there.
    2254 days ago
  • KACYISWINNING
    YESSSSS GORGEOUS U BETTER WORK!!!!! You look AMAZING, honey! I'm so proud of you and the results are definitely noticeable. Keep staying focused because CLEARLY it is paying off! emoticon emoticon

    And let me just say that you are WEARING that dress!!! emoticon


    Love ya! emoticon
    2255 days ago
  • ADF1981
    Congratulations! 15 is a big number! You look fabulous. Keep it up and you will get to your goal!
    2255 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/22/2013 5:59:13 AM
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