Wednesday, November 13, 2013
I keep thinking that I can leave this site and do it all on my own, that I don't need anyone. Then I get a reality check. I saw pictures of me at a wedding and I thought to myself, "How embarrassing. You look like you're pregnant." I wanted to delete all those photos off the computer but they belonged to someone else. I may be slowly shrinking from a size 28 to a size 24-22 now but I still look the same. It's awful to think about that. I'm not truly any thinner.
I know my high school reunion is coming up in 3 years. They've known me at sizes 18-28. All I ever wanted was to feel pretty. I need to feel pretty at this event. I need to not feel like the same girl I was in high school. The brunt of every joke.
I'm also getting ready to study abroad in Europe. I want to be thinner for this as well. I have lots of things I want to do and see there. I need to be thinner and healthier to do that.
Oh boy. I have a lot of goals I need to reach. I need to not give up this time.