Things are Off Track and I'm Really Scared
Monday, November 11, 2013
Ugh. Double Ugh. I'm feeling off and the scale is reflecting it.
Around last Thursday, I started experiencing some pain in my right hip. I think I've probably just pulled a muscle or something, but it is hampering my fitness efforts. Yesterday I only did around 8500 steps because I am trying to rest it, but it really upsets me to miss my goal like that. I know I need to make sure I don't do something to injure myself further, but...I really love exercising now, for the first time in my life. Also, I'm terrified that one day will become two, and three, and then I'll be 294 pounds again. Intellectually, I know that's a big leap but in my heart, I'm so scared!
Last Thursday, I decided I wanted a cheat day. I had Whataburger for lunch, then for dinner I made panko-breaded chicken strips and sweet potato fries.
Friday I did great on my food.
Saturday, I had Jack in the Box for lunch.
I'm feeling guilty about my 3 splurge meals. The scale is at 204 instead of 201 and I'm tired of being this close to ONEderland but not being there yet. I realize I didn't eat enough to put on 3 pounds, and I'm probably just retaining water from all the sodium in those unhealthy meals. I'm also probably putting on some muscle with CrossFit and that may be making the scale creep up a bit. But when you combine the weight and the food and the slacking off on my fitness and put it all together, I just feel like crap.
I didn't track my food for the last few days either. I'm usually quite religious about it.
So to sum up, UGH.
Today is a new day. I'm going to carefully measure and track everything I put in my mouth. I'm going to CrossFit today but I'm still going to stay relaxed on the steps until my hip is feeling better. Tomorrow is a running day and I do not want to skip.
I am not EVER going back to 294 pounds. Having a few bad days does NOT mean that I am going back to the old ways. I am strong. I can do this.