Weigh-Ins Always Mess with My Head
Sunday, November 03, 2013
Lose or or stay the same, weigh-ins always mess with my head. Like today it stayed the same. I know why -- dinner out last night at a Korean BBQ, even though I tried to be good. And a couple of candies at Halloween and the day after, again, even though I tried to "cheat in moderation."
If I lose 2 or 3 pounds, I feel like it isn't enough. If I stay the same, I chastise myself or resent those breathless mornings workouts that didn't help get me below my last number on the scale. Realizing this about myself, I only weigh myself once a week, but even then I never feel happy afterward. At best, I'm relieved. So why weigh myself? Because I do genuinely want and need a mark to chase. Once a month I take other body measurements, too. But it does help drive me to work harder when I know I have a weigh-in coming up each Sunday morning.
The trouble is that after I weigh myself I never feel positive. I should be happy that my work during the week has shown any measure of success, even if it's to not go UP on the scale. I guess the pressure of trying to lose weight for my brother's wedding in December is putting undue focus on the numbers on the scale. The reality is that, in addition to slimming down and looking good, I really do want to feel, look, and be really healthy. Over the past three weeks I have been achieving that. I do feel good. I move with more ease. I have more energy. I accomplish more in a day. I laugh more. My stress is lower. I am taking better care of myself, being nicer to myself and others. Those are important rewards that can't be measured on a scale.
And this is why we write blogs, my friends...so we can work through issues, real or imagined, that might undermine our efforts, like freaking out about the number on the scale, using it as an excuse to throw in the towel.
Gratitude is the key. It's so easy to latch onto that one dark moment and let it consume us, but there's so much else that is good. THAT is what I choose to focus on because, really, the other option won't take me anywhere good. And I want to travel down a happy, healthy, successful, harmonious path.
Here's to GRATITUDE and PERSEVERENCE.