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BACK WHERE I ORIGINALLY STARTED :(

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Sadly, I am right back where I started. I don’t dare climb on the scale, but just by looking at my reflection in the mirror, I am going to say I am right back up at 230 pounds.

But this is not the reason for my post today. I want to vent, or just release some of these thoughts in my head.

So yesterday, I’m undressing to get ready for bed, alone in my bedroom, I shout out…”oh my god I am fat”, because I was eye balling my stomach in the mirror (I am sure I am not the only one here that’s done that) and from the other room my husband chimes in, “well you’re the only one who can change that”, “yes of course I know this is true” I reply, and it ended there…Well then I started thinking about doing that “Shakology” stuff, but realized how expensive it is just for a powder drink mix which I will end up NOT using because I cannot stand to drink my meals.

Anyways, today I’m working and my husband begins texting me “hey I need to talk about something”, “okay, what is it” I reply….”I’m not trying to sound rude, but I notice a very noticeable change in you, you’re getting bigger, and I don’t want to wait until you really, really big before I am honest with you”…Of course no woman likes to hear these things from anyone much less their husband, but I am trying to understand he only cares about me, my health and the way I look as his wife, but it’s still hard for some reason.

So I have to try, try again at this weight loss thing. Starting ALL over again, since I’ve gained back any weight I had lost.

But here is my true frustration….I work full time (40 hours per-week), I am a full time Mommy of two daughters (9yrs & 3 yrs), I am a full time student (online courses) but I take two courses per-month, so I have to work on assignments all week for both courses, and I have to clean the house, cook dinner, do laundry, help oldest daughter with homework, make sure the kids take their shower, etc…HOW IN THE WORLD DO I FIT IN AT LEAST A 30 MINUTE WALK PER-DAY and will this 30 minute walk even benefit me weight loss wise?

I have tried EVERYTHING in the past to lose weight and I have been very unsuccessful, I just don’t understand WHAT I need to do.

Okay, I feel better now, I released some of those thoughts!!!
Have a great week!
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  • EBERKSHIRE86
    It's a tough situation I work full time and have two children as well you always feel like there is never enough time in the day for everything that needs to be done. Hang in there! First off I would talk to your husband if he is wanting you to do something about weight loss then he needs to pitch in have him pick up some of the slack in the housework so you have time for yourself. Involve your kids! My kids are 3 and 1 and both love to walk with me or do dvds with me ect. Sometimes if I can't get alone time I'll even use my 1 year old as a resistance weight (it always cracks her up ;)) but working out together is a good healthy habit to get into anyways! If you can't fit in a 30 minute block of exercise break it up do 10 in the morning while your getting ready (jog in place while you make lunches, do squats while you brush your teeth, make extra trips up the stairs) 10 on lunch take a few laps around the building 10 at night before bed or with the kids its still just as effective 30 minutes is 30 minutes whether all at once or separate and you'll benefit more from adding in some strength training (like the squats) as well. Also try to remember that fitness is only half the battle with 30 minutes a day your not going to see a difference if your not watching what you eat. Watch portions, try to cut down on processed foods, drink water, focus on lean meats and veggies THIS IS WHAT WILL MAKE THE DIFFERENCE! Nutrition is such a huge factor in losing the weight you can't out exercise a bad diet! Will it be hard? Probably, but it will be worth it make time for yourself, you'll never be sorry you did!
    2122 days ago
  • CHAPELSMACK
    I am glad you feel safe to vent on SP. I understand the frustration. And as hard as it might be to hear the truth from loved ones, sometimes it is the exact thing that we need to hear to get us on the right track. I know you can do it! You've got a whole website of cheerleaders rooting for you. emoticon emoticon
    2122 days ago
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