A New Challenge
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Over the past year or two, my weight stabilized at a reasonably healthy number and I learned to be comfortable. It wasn't my goal weight, but it was good enough in the midst of all the other stuff. Now, however, my weight has been steadily climbing in the past few months. Thanks to some medication, the depression and anxiety are more under control but - either by causation or correlation - the longer I'm on the medication, the higher my weight goes. I'm not giving up my meds so now I have to seriously step up my game plan and get my body back.
I hate logging food. The minutiae of measuring and calculating feels like more burden than help. For at least a week, however, I need to write it all down. I need to know if I am, in fact, eating more or if the medication has changed my metabolism.
Water, water everywhere. I'm going to carry my fabulous water bottle everywhere and - here's the key - not let my kids drain it! I'm actually going to drink the water myself!
For the past few weeks I've been doing 3 medium intensity workouts a week. Although this fits nicely into the schedule, this is not enough. It's time to move up to 5 days a week and to push myself to the sweaty limit each day. Of course, this means I also have to find time to fit more showers into my week, which leads to ...
... take better care of the way the body looks. Sweaty spandex, ponytail, no makeup is not a good look for me. I'm more likely to treat the body well if I believe the body is worth something. Am I worth some of my own time? As an example, right now I'm supposed to be diving into the homeschool day for the youngest. I've made the choice to get my thoughts together and use some of my time for myself. The schedule can wait a little while.
Time management is a major nuisance in all of these things. I don't feel like I have enough to get through even the urgent level of actions. There is, in fact, enough but how do I change my perspective to see reality?
I normally like my blog posts to have some sort of neat little tie at the end. I enjoy writing and these posts serve as a creative outlet in addition to their health and fitness benefits. I don't have closure for today's post, though. These are my scattered thoughts and this is the best I can do right now. I don't have answers and will have to be satisfied - at least in the short term - with questions.