Start yet again.
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Today I went out and got two hurricane glass holders, one I filled with 100 beads, the other is currently empty, you know where I am going with this. My ultimate goal is 100 lbs lost, but my one year goal is 75 lbs. I am capable of doing this. I know this, it should be easy right. Wrong, I was able to quit smoking knowing that I will just never ever put another cigarette in my mouth, that mentality does not work with food. Coming to grips with this is the hardest part for me. I love food, I love the taste, the smell, the preparation, the time, I am able to admit now that I am obsessed with food, so how do I do this???? I am going to start with my obsession being ok, I will focus on smaller portions and making sure that any bite that goes into my mouth is worth the effort, it will taste divine, it will smell amazing, and I will take my time preparing things I enjoy, if this means a brownie, so be it. But I will encourage others to take them home, or send to work with my sweetheart. I will not be the one eating nearly the whole pan any longer. One taste is going to become enough. I want this and this time I will succeed.