Sabotage or Kindness
Monday, October 14, 2013
Braum's Peanut Butter Cup Ice Cream. Back in the day, it was my favorite sweet temptation. Since January, I have had it exactly one time, and I thought, "huh, it's not as good as I remembered." I guess since I have been off the sugar, I have somewhat lost the taste for it.
My sister (with whom I live), went to Braum's the other day and came home with several cartons of their ice cream. Including Peanut Butter Cup.
We have not had this ice cream in the house since I decided to get healthy. The only people in our household who eat that flavor are my daughter and me.
My sister has been trying off and on over the last couple of months to lose weight, too, and she commented to someone else recently that she wished she had started back when I did in January and maybe she would have lost as much weight as I have. She has lost a few pounds but has generally not been very faithful to her eating and exercise plans so her results have been erratic.
I don't think she would ever sabotage me on purpose, but I am curious if subconsciously, that was her intent by bringing this ice cream home. Certainly it is possible that she was being thoughtful of my daughter, but she doesn't normally pick up that flavor when she goes since it isn't a family-wide favorite.
The good news is that I am really not interested at all in the ice cream sitting in the freezer. I look at that carton and I just think, "you are not worth undoing my hard work."
As for my sister, if she was being a saboteur, I will choose to remember how supportive she has been of my efforts. I will also choose to remember that taking those first steps to lose weight is really hard, and that sometimes seeing the success of others is a painful reminder of your own failure. If she is experiencing those feelings, she certainly deserves my sympathy and support.