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My chest is now bigger than my gut!

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

I glanced down this morning and realized that I could see my chest, but not my gut!

It's a slow journey. Last week I put on a pound, this week I took it off. And I really wanted it to be a couple of pounds, so that I felt like I had made up for the gain. I wanted it through magical thinking. I had not tracked my food, I did get dinner from a box instead of preparing it myself a few times too often and that box of digestive cookies that was supposed to last for a few months lasted a week. Sigh. So, that was the stuff I did that did not support what I WANT in terms of a healthy body.

But still, today I notice that my belly has shrunk enough that it no longer protudes past my bust.

I ate ONE chocolate bar last week, not 20. I ate half a loaf of bread over the week, not 4 or 5. I ate at least 6 portions of non-starchy vegetables and fruit every day. I ate breakfast every day. I drank two cans of gingerale, not 12. Plain steamed vegetables now taste tasty! They don't need butter, cheese, and salt to be palatable.

I swam 4 times this week and I swam hard. I'm wearing a new swimsuit because the one I bought in January (a two-piecer that went to my knees) had gotten so big that I was in danger of inadvertently swimming naked.

I've lost five inches off my hips. Which means I fit into theater seats and airplane seats. Tightly, but I fit - I don't have to sit on one buttock and tilt myself up anymore.

Underneath the fat, I can feel new muscles from all the swimming, including my stomach, as I am doing V-sit sculling.

Winter clothes from 2010 (when I had dropped 75 pounds on Spark) are starting to fit me. According to the scale I have at home, which is the one I was using in 2010, I'm 30 pounds away from my lowest point on Spark. Although the WW scale that I am now using as my official measurement puts me 18 pounds heavier!

Even with a badly sprained ankle, I've worked out a minimum of three times a week for the last 3 months.

I signed up for an art class, because I deserve to spend money on something that will truly nourish me. I need to replace the idea that food is my "treat" and enjoy some other treats.

I decided to book a vacation in late February in Vancouver, where I can enjoy friends and the first buds of Spring instead of feeling depressed and grim about how long the Ottawa winter is.

I lost my family doctor in one of the most unpleasant interactions of my life late last year. I finally found a new one - and I really like his approach AND he is walking distance from where I live.

This weekend, I'm going to take advantage of my husband's business trip to sit down and do my taxes (overdue!) and pay the fine. Because there will be a fine. Which means I've given up on the idea of getting a fireplace installed this year. But I'll start saving now to get one for next winter.

Part of me gets so damned impatient. It's going to be such a long journey to take the pounds off, and it's going to be an even tougher one to maintain the loss. But all I REALLY need to do is to get through TODAY with a certain amount of physical activity and staying on track with my food.

When I put it that way, it doesn't seem so tough. I don't need to think about the weight of years ahead, I just need to think about getting through the next eight or nine hours until bedtime. Easy peasy...
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  • no profile photo CD13400369
    There are so many successes in there! You are definitely rocking it!

    It gets difficult sometimes to be patient, and then we are given a tiny glimpse of our future and our goals when we notice something that is HUGE in our process! Even if no one else can see it, sometimes the way your skin feels or how your arms fall, or how your vantage point looking down changes ever so slightly....it's all HUGE progress! Congrats!
    2831 days ago
    I was in BC this summer visiting friends and family. So worth it! Prince George, Osyoos, Sidney and Quadra Island.

    Sounds like you are doing great! I saw you at the last meet and greet I went to. I decided to host an impromptu meet and greet this Friday at my place. Check your messages for a map and website info. Great that you needed a new bathing suit. I had to retire my old one too for the same reason! Justyna
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    2832 days ago
    LOL ... yes ... the old "inadvertent naked swimming." The scourge of swimmers everywhere.
    2833 days ago
  • no profile photo JEANNETTE59
    One day at a time, one change at a time, remembering to track not so you can beat yourself up, when you slip, but so you can learn why you slipped. You're working so hard and have a beautiful attitude. Celebrate your successes and watch them multiple. emoticon
    2834 days ago
    Your speaking my language. Love your blog. Difficulty buying bras. Gut compete ting with my chest. Socks that roll down etc. these are things that really make me mad. Congrats on your successes!

    2836 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13434951
    Great work! little by little..as bad habits are replaced with healthy ones, you will achieve your goals!

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  • no profile photo CD13978272
    All these small changes you are making lead to big results!!1 You are doing wonderfully!!! emoticon
    2836 days ago
    You are doing emoticon and you will reach your goals. You are taking steps each day and you are seeing results. Your persistence will pay off.
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  • BRADMILL2922
    That is awesome! Congrats!
    2836 days ago
    Love the line "I wanted it through magical thinking."

    Been there, done that.
    2836 days ago
    What a thrill!
    2836 days ago
  • KAREN608
    Being honest with yourself is the only way to be.
    I liked how you said you had THIS and not THAT....
    tapering down high calorie things, but still enjoying
    life. Planning an early spring vacation! Lots of good
    rewards besides new clothes... This is wonderful
    to read and very encouraging to me. Thank you.
    2836 days ago
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    2836 days ago
    Great job! You are doing wonderful even though it's not PERFECT! Yes perfect is over rated. As you are learning to live a different way. It's true what they say that it's a life style change and we have to overhaul our thinking. So in my book, you are doing amazing! Keep sparking... it's paying off!
    2836 days ago
  • WILDKAT781
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  • no profile photo CD13370898
    This post was AWESOME! I love that you're finding the good things you have accomplished, and are still accomplishing. It's easy to get lost in the big picture, but when you focus on the great things you are doing, that helps. And this entry was a perfect exercise in doing just that!

    Oh, and... I would LOVE for my boobs to be bigger than my belly. That would be so bad ass!

    Hope you're having a great afternoon!

    2836 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13196063
    You aren't going to be transformed in a day. So you need to realize it will take time. I know how impatient you becaome. I like you, want everything done yesterday. Hang in there and try to be patient....you're already seeing results! emoticon emoticon
    2836 days ago
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