Week 1: How did I do? Perfectionism re-visited.
Sunday, September 01, 2013
I wasn't perfect, but I did okay.
I don't have to be perfect every day. I am re-training my brain so it's not just something I say, but something I feel. It's okay to not be perfect sometimes. 4 days of tracking is better than 0 days. I'm giving myself permission to not be perfect all the time.
I did exercise every day I planned to, and I am re-building that habit. I've already noticed that after 2 weeks of MINIMAL exercise, I am noticing a few small changes. The walk from my house to the bus, and from the bus to work is slightly less painful. In the perfect world, I would have exercised at least 10 minutes a day. I'm giving myself permission to build good habits over time, and not worry so much about what I 'should be' doing according to anyone else.
I was raised to be a perfectionist, and getting rid of that habit is going to take some time. All the platitudes in the world don't change how the brain has been programmed, and how the gut reacts. Perfect house cleaning. A perfect piece of writing flowing down the page. Being perfect about drinking water, tracking food and exercising. So many ways one should be perfect. Why bother if you can't be? Because even though, yes, sometimes striving for perfection is fun, most of the time, good enough is okay too.
It's not about being perfect - it's about getting the results over time. That is what important, the long view, not being perfect on the short term, but being good enough to accomplish goals in the long run. You don't have to be perfect to do that, just persistent.
I wasn't perfect this week - but I am and will continue to be persistent.