Never Give Up
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Last fall I kind of fell off the sparkpeople wagon. I thought starting my new job would add structure to my days which would help me to follow the program I had set for myself. It was like that for a while at the beginning but my job turned into a time-consuming stress-creating monster during peak season and I did not have the energy to log my meals or plan them in advance. The healthy, home-made meals I packed for myself at the start turned into eating out and an increase in my diet coke consumption. Somewhat ironically I would be to wiped out at the end of the day to fit in excercise and was unwilling to drag myself out of bed any earlier than necessary to fit in a workout and shower in the am. I say it was ironic b/c I know and understand that excercise ends up leaving you feeling more energized when all is said and done.
I count myself lucky that I did not gain back ALL of the weight I had worked so hard to lose that previous Spring/Summer. I recently realized how much I hated where my life is. I was not working in a type of job that was a good fit, I was not doing well physically, socially or emotionally. I decided to take action. That job was never meant to be permanent and I decided it was time to take steps towards a career that I am passionate about. I had planned to go back and work on masters degree. I had already taken the GRE and I decided now was the time to apply and make it a reality. So I quit my job and I am enrolled full time in a masters program. I feel great about having taking action in helping that area of my life move towards being more fulfilling. That, along with the fact that my parents have recently started a new "diet" program and are not only having success but finding that they actually enjoy the new types of foods they are experiencing, has inspired me to get back into the sparkpeople groove.
Sometimes I don't feel like those around me believe in my ability to change - my weight, career track etc - but I don't want to give up on believing these are achievable goals. I have gone into all my previous goals set and tweaked them for a new timeline. I am not going to let guilt over my recent lapse prevent me from moving forward. I am very likely to mess up again, probably soon. The trick is to never give up. I will forgive myself and move on and try to do better, try to recognize what brought me off track, try to find a way to eat healthy, move more and watch those pounds that are dragging me down melt away, slowly but surely.