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Thursday, August 22, 2013

My favourite nephew lives in stockholm but has head office in my town so he visits now and then - and then stays with his father that lives across the street from me. Which means that I get to drive him to work, a wonderful opportunity to chat about life.

He had just done the "midnight race" in Stockholm and we talk about health - he is normals wieghted but told me that he had gained during winter so he had started to exercise more and eat healthier from april - and lost about six kilos. Which is a LOT on a person that is normal weighted I think...

He had done the 5:2 which did not work that well so then he did the classic - ate less and exercised more...

He - and a thread on "Living binge free" made me think about my own path for today. I am NOT succeding in adapting a balanced attitude towards food and exercise, I am on the verge to dive inte a crash diets or exaggerate exercising all the time. I spend a lot of time during my day to think about food. How hungry I am, what and well I will eat, if I should try to not eat at all, how much I might have lost... it occupies far too much of my day and of course I use it to feel bad about myself emoticon

But to be honest – I don´t care (correction - I SHOULD not care) The top priority with my health issues right now is to lose weight, as long as I do that I can think and obsess and be as crazy as I want.

And again my experience is usable - when I gave up drinking I obsessed to. I spent a lot of time woorying about how to cope, obsessing about what would happen in the future, obsessing about how hard it was etc. etc. But the priority was to stay sober and I did. And with time the obsession faded away as I started to believe that I could do it.

So obsession or not - who cares? As long as I keep losing weight, it is okay. And let me remind you that I am extremely obese, I am not talking about obsessing about cosmetic kilos, I am talking about a life saving necessity.
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  • OOLALA53
    I think it's normal to think more about something we are learning. We think about all the steps of driving when we first learn. Musicians and performers think about their art even when they aren't practicing it. We eat several times a day so it's understandable that it takes up our thoughts as we learn to make new habits into a routine. And eating less is one of the most challenging habits to adopt. I think you are on track.
    2293 days ago
    Obsessions come and go for me. At one time I was obsessed not so much with food as with being fat, and the chips and crackers were the accompaniment to the obsession. Then I joined WW and the obsession became the Daily Food Plan, then that became so automatic that I moved on to the next obsession: drinking. Or rather being drunk all the time. When I first joined AA, AA became my obsession. Then as the string of sober days accumulated, I moved on to the next obsession. I obsessed about HIM, then I married him. I obsessed about wanting a baby, now all the babies are over 40. They come and they go as you manage to deal with them.
    2294 days ago
    Your health takes precedence over everything, Meddy...as the old saying goes (and I'll vouch for it!)..."Health is wealth!" emoticon
    2296 days ago
    I think you are doing really well. If you need to obsess, then obsess you must.

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    2296 days ago
  • LETHA_
    Good blog post. I am also trying to channel my obsessive nature into weight loss activities.
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    2297 days ago
    Thank you for your honestly. I think about food faaaar too often myself. I find that I can't get my work even stated until I have logged my planned meals, but then only to obsess and over think them all day-and then stray horribly from the planned meals anyway, as if my mind is fighting against itself.
    I don't know if it will ever get easier to not obsess about food. I sure hope it does though!

    2297 days ago
    Obsessing about food used to be a big part of my days. Wore me out. I would DREAM about food! I have a hard time not thinking in cause/effect terms. I think part of my obsessing came from making poor choices that kept me hungry all the time, if I was staying in calorie range. Since joining sparkpeople I've discovered that I wasn't getting enough protein into my days, for me. I now count protein grams as well as calories and am more satisfied with my choices. I also focus more on planning my exercise and finding things I enjoy doing more than eating. I eat very simply today and enjoy the fresh fruits and veggies and not being in the kitchen all the time. Make no mistake, mindless eating has not taken over. I still write down in my own shorthand what I eat, the calories and protein grams. I make thoughtful choices but I'm no longer obsessive. You are right, establish a healthy pattern and eventually the obsession will go away.
    2297 days ago
  • DR8561
    You're so right! It takes some obsessing to turn a new lifestyle into a habit. Thanks for a fresh (for me) perspective. emoticon
    2297 days ago
    I appreciate you sharing this with us. It is sometimes challenging but when you make it about how you FEEL instead of how you look, it can accept and acknowledge your own success.
    2297 days ago
    Thank you so much both for your thoughts here as in the thread on the forum. I very much appreciate it that you took the time to write that lengthy reply to my question. I really wanted to hear your thoughts! Because I knew that you are having a different perspective.
    I did a test somewhere and the outcome was that in my circumstances, I'd need to do a meal replacment diet! That surprised me. Can't remember just where that was.
    2297 days ago
    i think obsessing is ok, too - it's what keeps me on track. i seem to *need* an obsession in my life to stay on focus, and in your case it's a livsviktig measure - it's ok!
    2297 days ago
    I understand.
    2297 days ago
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