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Friday, August 16, 2013

There - I put it out there. I never do that. I am one of those people who quietly struggle and then just give up and fade away. I DON'T want to do that. As much as I hate to say I am struggling, I would hate to quit this effort even more.

I have had a busy month. Birthdays, parties, mini road trips with friends & family - all of which have involved food temptations. Some I did ok on, other not so ok.

I also have done a 5k this month --- actually TWO 5k's. I had never completed one this year. That is my positive.

But I am struggling with my commitment and motivation. I want to lose the weight. I want to feel better. I want to eat healthier. I want to work out. I want to see the results of working out ------ I just don't want to do the work. I am feeling lazy. I am feeling tired. I am sick of planning meals. I am sick of trying to find the one healthy thing on the menu at the place my friends choose for dinner.

My knee really hurts. I want to go home and take a nap on the couch. I don't want to go out for a walk.

AND here's the kicker ---- I broke my monthly weigh in rule. I got on the scale hoping to see some progress to motivate me --- and I am up one pound from where I weighed in on the 24th of July. WHAT?

That makes my 5lb goal for the month seem unobtainable. This would be the first month I have not met my weightloss goal. Which makes me feel like I will NEVER EVER reach my overall weightloss goal if I can't meet the small monthly steps.

I swear - yet deep down I know, if I quit I will NEVER see that goal. That this is just one month, and there are many more to come. That my knee pain will eventually go away. That my food choices were not that great and if I really focus, I CAN do this.

But right now, just for today. I don't want to.

So fighting with inner self and doing my best to stay on track.

I am not a quitter. Not this time.
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  • SARIC_33
    Also - are you paying attention to your sodium intake? Water and make the scale do crazy things.
    2865 days ago
  • SARIC_33
    Sorry I missed this blogger earlier. I was a little 'self absorbed' this weekend.

    I'm glad you pulled through the weekend.
    2865 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10764669
    After reading all the comments --- I couldn't have said it any better. It happens to all of us --- ups and downs, wanting it so badly, but just not having the oomph to move.

    Don't look at the negative of what you didn't do or what you shouldn't have eaten, look at the positives of what you've done so far. It's one day at a time -- you'll be okay and you will reach your weight goal.

    Believe in yourself!!! emoticon
    2868 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10895053
    I know that I've been there and done that and so many here for that matter can say that. You've gotten so much good, solid advice that I'll just close with lots of emoticon and that I know emoticon
    2868 days ago
  • LETHA_
    Motivation waxes and wanes. Another wave of motivation will come barreling toward you at any moment. Hang tight.

    2868 days ago
    Hey, Barb, I know about those days! Sucky but real.

    Remember: "If you're going through hell, keep going!" Thanks, Winston Churchill.

    What helps during yuck times is to remember that

    * I can feel yucky and do it anyway... and that then I will feel better.
    * Right now is the only time; the past is irrelevant and the future unknown
    *My goal is to always do my best and some days my best is better than others. Maybe instead of a full work out program, a 10 minute walk. (Surprise - usually this turns out to be more AND enjoyable.)

    And sometimes I just totally flub it. And that's okay, too because we can always start our day over.

    Last, but not least, you are doing emoticon by putting it out there and asking for help. That is not easy to start doing but in my experience it is really powerful. Please give yourself a big emoticon and a few emoticon and treat yourself to fixing your hair or wearing clothing that makes you feel good or doing any little thing that will acknowledge you as the awesome striver that you are!

    PS I'll be checking back on you, friend!

    2869 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13423552
    We all have those days, especially when the scale and our bodies don't cooperate! So, give your knee a little break and take a rest. I had to take a break from running when I strained my hamstring and I never thought I would really miss it, but I did. There are weeks where the scale doesn't move for me, but you know this is a journey and the month is not over. You've got this and you don't want to give up. Go back and look at the picture of the woman smiling crossing the finish of the 5k! She seemed pretty happy with herself.
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    2869 days ago
    Tired? No kiddin' - look at all you've done!

    Frustrated? Who isn't when their body doesn't seem to want to cooperate?

    Time for a break? That might be the very thing that you need, especially with a sore knee.

    Your body needs some time and calories to heal (and, by the way, the body retains extra water when healing, so it's entirely likely that the uptick on the scale is from that), so it might be worthwhile to put yourself in to "maintenance" for a few days or a week and let your body catch up with you.

    By *choosing* to eat at maintenance levels, change to more gentle exercise, and give yourself time to heal, you keep the control without the pressure and stress. Whether you choose to do so for a couple of days or a week depends on what your body tells you it needs.

    Relax, trust yourself - you've GOT this! Treat yourself with all the gentle kindness that you would your best friend...

    (Oh, and fabulous rant, by the way! It's got to feel good to lay it all out there like this, and I hope it helps you to put it all back in to perspective!)
    2869 days ago
  • KATIZUMI20131
    Maybe you need a break. When I do not allow myself breaks, i collapse and quit. I am not good at doing things at sustainable levels. I want it done right now, totally, so i can get it out of the way and do something else. But life does not work very well that way because some projects cannot be done in one day. Take a break so you don't have to quit. Switch your focus. You are sick of focusing on the losing weight--the food---the exercise---I relate! You can diet so hard you forget to live. But we have to just incorporate new habits into life itself. Otherwise it won't work. Because these changes we make have to be forever. Eventually, you have to go on autopilot with the food and exercise thing. I don't know---maybe this can help you, hope so! But two steps forward and one step back is completely normal in a weight program. I gain a pound back all the time. But overall, I have steady loss, and I bet you do, too. Its for the long run, my friend...stop obsessing on it and you won't be so sick of it. Relax. Think about something else.
    2869 days ago
    It is hard to 'put it out there' you did it. Sometimes it is hard to look at the road ahead - I know it well. Sometimes it helps to look from where you have come... put down the to do list and write a DONE list. It was a busy month? Jot down all the things you did, all the people you did things for, all the food you didn't eat but wanted to. Then sit, feel proud and take a day for you!Knowing you will come back stronger tomorrow. Know that it might be me you are giving this advice to next week... The chart can't always be going in one direction or it wouldn't be called a journey. Take care, my friend.
    2869 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13838073
    Barbi...YOU are the one in control of this ship. It goes wherever you want it to go. And for today,...just today...you don't feel like standing at the helm. So look at it this way...

    FORCING yourself to do these things is making you MISERABLE. So stop being MISERABLE. Just let go for a day or two. Believe me...YOU WILL COME RUNNING and SCREAMING back.

    Forget the scale...forget the 'diet' food...lay on ther couch for a full 24 hours and watch lifetime or comedy central...whatever you're feelin'. Completely and wholly loose yourself in your dark cloud. YOU WILL DISCOVER VERY QUICKLY HOW MUCH YOU HATE BEING THERE.

    I just went through this yesterday...read my blog and see...lololol. After a couple of hours I said...'this SUCKS' I can't do this anymore...'

    And today...I'm back...stronger and more grateful for my new way of life!


    You're a SUPERSTAR. You LIKE eating healthy. You LOVE working out! You just aren't feeling all of that today...and that's OKAY! :-)

    Love you...you got this, Girl!!!
    2869 days ago
    You are not a quitter. You are moving forward toward your goal and you will do it!!
    2869 days ago
    You can do it! 1 pound up doesn't mean you can't achieve your goals.

    2869 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13786757
    I can relate! I have been here on SP since April. I have struggled for every pound! I have lost 11 lbs. I am happy about the pounds lost, but it is going sooooo slow! But I know that I am doing what is good for me so, I just keep eating right and exercising! I kknow that I will get there! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2869 days ago
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