103 struggling---- help!!!
Friday, August 16, 2013
There - I put it out there. I never do that. I am one of those people who quietly struggle and then just give up and fade away. I DON'T want to do that. As much as I hate to say I am struggling, I would hate to quit this effort even more.
I have had a busy month. Birthdays, parties, mini road trips with friends & family - all of which have involved food temptations. Some I did ok on, other not so ok.
I also have done a 5k this month --- actually TWO 5k's. I had never completed one this year. That is my positive.
But I am struggling with my commitment and motivation. I want to lose the weight. I want to feel better. I want to eat healthier. I want to work out. I want to see the results of working out ------ I just don't want to do the work. I am feeling lazy. I am feeling tired. I am sick of planning meals. I am sick of trying to find the one healthy thing on the menu at the place my friends choose for dinner.
My knee really hurts. I want to go home and take a nap on the couch. I don't want to go out for a walk.
AND here's the kicker ---- I broke my monthly weigh in rule. I got on the scale hoping to see some progress to motivate me --- and I am up one pound from where I weighed in on the 24th of July. WHAT?
That makes my 5lb goal for the month seem unobtainable. This would be the first month I have not met my weightloss goal. Which makes me feel like I will NEVER EVER reach my overall weightloss goal if I can't meet the small monthly steps.
I swear - yet deep down I know, if I quit I will NEVER see that goal. That this is just one month, and there are many more to come. That my knee pain will eventually go away. That my food choices were not that great and if I really focus, I CAN do this.
But right now, just for today. I don't want to.
So fighting with inner self and doing my best to stay on track.
I am not a quitter. Not this time.