So, the past few months I have been eating better and exercising more. Yes, there are times I make less than good choices with food, or hit the snooze instead of getting on the treadmill - but overall, I have made lots of positive changes!
I started walking, lifting weights, using a kettlebell. I try to get 10,000 steps in every day.
Mr Scale has rewarded me with a number almost 35 pounds smaller than where I started at Easter time.
My clothes have gotten too big. My smaller clothes have room in them. I no longer have to shop in the plus size clothes.
People have noticed my increased energy, my smaller size, my positive attitude. I get compliments from people who say "You really ENJOY your life" and I do.
I was feeling pretty good. I felt like I looked pretty good. I felt like I was accomplishing something.
I completed a 5k yesterday. My second one. I was sore. I had poison ivy on my ankles and it was itchy. My knee hurt. But I finished and with a time of 48 minutes 2 seconds - which I of course was not happy with. I thought I SHOULD have done more, I SHOULD have been faster. I was not feeling very accomplished, crossing the finish line well after those fit runners...
And then, I saw this picture of me and my daughter posted on the website of the 5k race.
And then this bully started in - look at the size of her legs - she still has that thick middle - and that double chin - so much for looking good - wow, she has a long way to go to look fit - and she couldn't even post a decent time in the race - she's still a big girl with a long way to go - she probably will NEVER get there. UGH!
Now I would never think it would be acceptable to say those things to someone else - in fact I never would say those things to anyone - except myself. I would encourage that person, not cut her down. Yet for some reason I bully myself. I expect the near impossible from me.
So, note to self "Stop IT"!!!! Bullying is not acceptable!!!
You my dear are not a quitter. With practice you will post a better time. With more training, you will become stronger. With more healthy eating and exercise, you will become leaner. Your body is incredibly strong to carry those 190 lbs across the finish line. Give it some credit!
Wait! Bully within, look at that woman - look above that double chin and see the smile on her face. Nothing negative going on there! Look at the sparkle in her eyes from that feeling of accomplishment! She rocks! AND she crossed the finish line (even you couldn't weight her down!) WooHoo!!!!!
Yep, life is good, even if we don't always like the pictures at first glance. Sometimes we need to take a second, deeper look.