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Life Change - New Identity

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

A lot has changed since I regularly used this site. I am now a widow, which really sucks, although it doesn't define me it has changed my perspective on a lot of things. It feels like I have been given a new identity, one I didn't ask for and which I'm still trying to figure out. Part of that involves me wanting to become a healthier version of myself, not only for myself but for my kids since I'm the only parent they have left. Am I ready to loose weight? I'm not entirely sure, but I know that I want to begin try again so I'll just have to see how things go.

I know that this will be difficult emotionally as well as physically especially now that my husband Jason who was always my biggest supporter and cheerleader is no longer here to give me his support and encouragement. But I'll trudge on because if there's one thing that he would want for me its for me to be happy with myself. This is just one aspect of who I am, not the whole person and in a time where my life has gone through so much change this is one thing I know that I need to tackle head on.

I started a 10 week biggest loser challenge at work today so here goes nothing. What do I have to loose besides $20.....oh yeah that's right its time to loose the weight!!
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  • HIPPICHICK1
    My condolences on the passing of your beloved husband, Jason.
    2422 days ago
  • ALOUIE
    You can do this and NOT alone. I have done Weight watchers in the past. I can't afford it now however one of the great leaders said stay in the seat. Even if you aren't losing even gaining if you are consistently in the seat invested in your health you will get through what ever is keeping you back. NEVER EVER feel ashamed if you trip on the path of weight lose WE ALL do it!!! So biggest advice show up here Post make relationships and don't give up (:
    2425 days ago
  • JLDACQ
    I know how that "new identity" feels too, and sometimes it's hard not to let it define you. Even 10 months later, some feelings are just so raw.

    I also know what you mean by your best supporter no longer being there. Ditto. I miss mine too. And like you, mine wanted me to be happy with myself, regardless of the size I am, and if that meant to be at a normal weight, then that's what I have to keep doing.

    If you need to talk to someone in person, I'm here for you. If I didn't send you my phone number yet, I'll do it today on FB. And I bet your kids will soon be your best supporters, too.
    2425 days ago
  • WESTCOASTGIRL2
    Oh, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. That is a really big emotional drain. From past posts (when we were both more active on Spark) I know you are a very strong soul. You are chosing the right path -- doing this for yourself and for your kids. I know you can and will do it. You have a mountain of support here, and I am sure your kids will take over as your prime cheerleaders and support you too as they begin to see your changes. This is also a wonderful opportunity for showing them how doing the right thing may mean making some sacrifices, and as such become life lesson they will take with them forever - and evidence of their mother's love. You can do it. I know you can.

    I've just recently (1 month ago) started up again too. My reasons are also emotionally centered, but nothing like yours. We can support each other through this!!! emoticon
    2425 days ago
  • WESTCOASTGIRL2
    Oh, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. That is a really big emotional drain. From past posts (when we were both more active on Spark) I know you are a very strong soul. You are chosing the right path -- doing this for yourself and for your kids. I know you can and will do it. You have a mountain of support here, and I am sure your kids will take over as your prime cheerleaders and support you too as they begin to see your changes. This is also a wonderful opportunity for showing them how doing the right thing may mean making some sacrifices, and as such become life lesson they will take with them forever - and evidence of their mother's love. You can do it. I know you can.

    I've just recently (1 month ago) started up again too. My reasons are also emotionally centered, but nothing like yours. We can support each other through this!!! emoticon
    2425 days ago
  • BLUESKIES139
    Sorry for your loss. I am glad you are not letting it define you! Its awesome that you want to get healthy for your kids. I am a new mommy and my LO is definitely a HUGE reason I want to loose the weight i gained!!! I can be a cheerleader for you :) and encourage you along the way!!! I love helping support people and helping them reach their goals :D
    2425 days ago
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