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Thursday, August 08, 2013

Am I? I say I am as my pants are tighter and I am overly uncomfortable with my body and how my clothes fit. BUT am I READY?? Really ready? How do you feel when your READY? What are you doing if your READY? What action am I doing if I am READY? HMM I have a DESIRE to be ready. I know I need that. Is it a burning do everything and anything DESIRE? Honestly no. How do I get that? I have had it before. I did this! Or almost did it. I was so close. I was down to 163 at one point. I even ran a 1/2 marathon 7/11 . I lost me time though. I think that is where I slipped and fell. I am in the mud now Smiling though. I am happier then I have ever been in every area BUT my weight. I married the man of my dreams June 22 2013. We are still in the process of merging everything as we did not live together before we married. I believe I am ready or at least almost ready. Maybe my toes are in the water. Maybe my mind set is do I REALLY want that extra cookie? Is that the right way? Is it easier to get back on the path easing your way back on or it is better to JUMP on the path and start running? OH I love to run! I need to get back to it. IT is so hard to find time for me to do this. Isn't it funny I ENJOY and LOVE to run though I don't do it. ONE thing that could really help me get back on track and I don't do it. I do this and that and busy busy busy and then bed time. I have to find the me time. AT LEAST 30 minutes of me time. SO WHEN? Before I go to work? I am SO SO SO not a morning person. After work? We are always so busy with this and that with the kids. After dinner? UGH I am full. After getting the kids ready to settle down for the night? TOO TIRED. WHEN? WHEN will I make time for me? Do I start scheduling me time? Maybe 2 to 3 times a week? Schedule in my runs? Hmm A thought. I don't know the answer. I do know I did it or almost did it and I WANT it! I want the healthy weight. I don't have to be skinny I just want to be fit. I used to want to be 145 it was stuck in my head I HAD to be 145. I didn't make it but got close at 163. What do I want now? Is there a number in mind? I would like to be in size 8/10 that is my magic number I think. No longer is it the scale but the fit. The fit of the jeans. When you zip them up and don't have to lay on the bed to SUCK it in. I want to slip them on and FEEL good. I want to look in the mirror and no longer SEE the muffin top. I want to hear the compliments. I believe I have determined I am READY! I am ready to start! I am not saying I am jumping on the path but I am starting!! (: I am ready to start! That is the first battle right? (:
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    I lost a significant amount of weight a few years ago, but life got in the way and I gained most of it back. It discouraged me for awhile, but I had to let it go and start over. It is hard, but you can do it! I will be right here with you cheering you on!

    2487 days ago
    The hardest step is the first one, but it is so worth it! I'm rooting for you!!
    2492 days ago
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