10 lbs in one month
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
I have realized that I am an emotional eater. I never really thought I was until I was put back on my depression/anxiety meds. They make me not hungry although I do eat because I know that I need to. I make better food choices though because I'm not hungry so instead of eating a bag of chips I'll grab an apple or yogurt. I know that the apple will fill me up where as previously I could eat about 2 bowls of chips before I started to feel full.
I was never actually "fat" or overweight. I have worked in healthcare since I was in high school and as a nurse for 5 years. I've worked in doctors offices for 4 of those 5 years and even worked in Bariatric Surgery for a year. My BMI was never above normal however, I didn't feel my best. I was active at my gym and lost a little bit of weight but still not enough to make me feel like I was accomplishing what I wanted to, which was to be comfortable with myself again. My problem is I would continue to eat as I always had.
I was put on depression/anxiety meds when I was 16, after being diagnosed with cancer. I got off them when I was about 18. I got back on them when I was 24 after having my twins due to post partum. I was off them again around 26. Getting back on them at 28 after my house was taken in a tornado. I got off them at about 30 after I lost my job and couldn't afford them since I didn't have insurance anymore. Now that I'm working again and have insurance I am back on them after being diagnosed with hearing loss.
One of the side effects is loss of appetite. I don't ever remember losing my appetite previously, although after having my twins I didn't eat much and would "forget" to eat but I chalked that up to being so busy that it would slip my mind. I was a single mom of 3 kids all under the age of 3, a full time student and full time employee so I was pretty busy. Anyway being on the medication this time has really affected my appetite. I make sure to eat because obviously I have to. But I don't eat as much, I don't crave the things that I used to, and my food choices have been better.
It feels good to shed some of the weight that was making me feel bad about myself. In the last month after being put back on meds I have lost 10 lbs. I'm also doing the Focus T25 so not all the weight loss is from my diet. I would like to start focusing on toning once fall comes and I start my RIPT class again.
I guess when/if I get off my medication again I should focus on my emotional eating. Focus on good choices and not on the bad choices. Its something I've always struggled with.